Another Bridge the Gap Half Marathon in the books!



Had you told me in May of 2008, that in May of 2017 that I would be completing my 7th half-marathon, I would have told you that you were CRAZY!!!  Yet here we are! 🙂

I walked most of this one, because 1-I had not trained, and 2- I have been having some knee issues.  But we finished it!  It took us 3:27, but we had so much fun! 🙂

I even got interviewed for KHQA news

So happy the rain stopped in time for us to have a great day! 🙂


Here’s to another year of Health and Fitness! 🙂


May has been quite busy so far.  I started a new workout program, and a new nutrition program.  I’ll write a post about that here very soon.  Lots of experimenting and research going on right now.  But for today, I wanna talk a little about Mother’s Day, Moms, and the blessing and the losses.

First, as most of you know, I will honor my sweet girl, whom I have missed everyday for over 28 years now, my Marian.  I loved her without ever meeting her, and I love her still. 


Next, I would like to mention the AWESOME kid that gives me hugs that make me feel more special than anyone has ever made me feel.  I love you Miss Bella! ❤

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And of course, the most wonderful Mom EVER, and the one person that I never go a day without thinking about.  The way she loved me.  The HORRIBLE crap we went through together.  Her never giving up on me being “normal”. The way we became best friends as I got older.  The way I can STILL bust out laughing just thinking about things she said and did.  I miss you ALWAYS, Mom!  I love You!


And to the woman who gave me my Soulmate to drive me crazy and love me through ALL of life’s good, bad, and downright UGLY times.  My mother-in-law Vicki.  Miss You!

(The look on my face in this picture says it all! She was being ornery that day!  hahaha)


To those Moms who have loved and lost little angels as I have, my heart breaks for you.  If you are still trying my heart is full of hope for you.  If it doesn’t happen, please keep your faith in God that there IS a reason.  That you do have people that love you and need your love and guidance.  Be a “mother” to them.


To a friend whose Angel finally arrived and is perfect and beautiful in every way!  I actually finally got to meet this little guy yesterday, and it filled me with so much love to see the Bentley Family so Happy! ❤




Lastly, I was reflecting on a conversation that I had last night.  A friend saw her son for the first time being a “Dad”.  She was surprised at how AWESOME he was at it, considering this young man’s dad was not exactly “Father of the Year”.  But this morning as I replayed that conversation, it dawned on me that being a Mom, being a Dad, it doesn’t really matter which you are, as long as you do it with love and are a good Parent, those who are watching will learn.  So single moms, dads, grandparents, foster parents, aunts, uncles, teachers, childcare providers, ANYONE who has influence over children….They ARE watching, and they WILL learn from what you do!  We are ALL in a sense “parents” to the children who are in our presence.

This particular friend is an AWESOME MOM!  Her son did not need a “Good Dad” around to teach him to be a good Dad, he just needed a Good Parent.  And THAT he HAD! 




So to all of you who are a Mom to 2-leggers, 4-leggers, here on Earth or those with wings in Heaven, my wish is for you all to have a Beautiful Day, this Sunday and EVERY Day! ❤


I have said it before, and you are probably thinking, “Yeah, yeah, yeah.  Here we go again.”

Maybe so!  But I have been really digging deep the last couple of weeks, all while actually being on vacation and adding an additional FIVE POUNDS to my already squishy and bloated body, but a few things seem to have really sunk in.  Plus I am going to have a great support group starting on Monday that I hope will help everyone in it get on track with their nutrition. ***Message me at if you want in that group. Shakeology and being my(or a member of my team) Beachbody Customer is required.***

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As I drove to work today, I was listening to You Are A Bad Ass by Jen Sincero, which I have done at least 3 other times, but I HEARD something different today.

“When taking GREAT leaps forward, life often turns to shit before it turns to Shinola!”

WOW!  I mean WOW!!!!

As I FINALLY took the leap to open my own studio, it seemed the minute the purchase went through, the stress started.  I faked it on the outside, but truly was not ready to believe that I could ever be successful in business.  That was my past full of failures coming back to haunt me.  But I pressed forward.  As I did, the stress grew, and my drinking started to get a little out of hand again.  Not quite where it was in the past, but enough that not only was I wasting calories on all the booze, but I started making poor food choices.  I was sabotaging my own success!

After finally opening the studio, by Thanksgiving, I was starting to get sick.  By Christmas, I was sick enough to finally go to a doctor for meds.  By January, I was driven into the ground!  2 rounds of antibiotics and steroids it would take just to get the bugs out and start the healing on my lungs.  I was BEAT!  And I seemed to have overnight gained about 20#!  I was already heavier than I wanted to be from the stress of the months leading up to the opening, and here I was packing on MORE!  I felt, and FEEL, horrible.  I needed something to wake me up and snap me out of this “Failure Funk”!

Well, it happened!  As I was preparing to take this next leg of my journey, I got a slap in the face!  I am STILL letting not only my past, but the energy of those around me, AND the fear of rejection and failure rule my present life.  Sometimes it is those closest to you that try to hold you back the most.  My advice to You AND ME, is DON’T LET THEM!

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If you KNOW someone or something is a bad influence in your life, take whatever steps you must to SHUT IT DOWN!  INSIST that the people in your life, from you parents and spouses, to your casual acquaintences on Facebook, respect your goals to be healthy and happy!  And if that means that you have to end up leaving a few people who make you feel bad about yourself behind because they have no desire to help you grow, then it is their loss.  Bless them to go on about their lives and release them from your circle.

Life is a rollercoaster.  without the work to get to the top, you will never feel the full thrill of the ride.  There will be ups and there will be downs, but if you have the courage and the drive to work up to the top of the next hill, the ride on the other side is sure to be filled with “throw your hands in the air fun!”

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Are YOU Looking For A Challenge?

Well, I have a Challenge for you!



I am starting a Spring Into Health focus group that will begin MAY FIRST!!!!

And I am NOT going to yank your chain, you WILL have to buy some tools!  You know what happens when you get something for FREE?  That is EXACTLY the value you see in it.  ZERO!

Be honest.  If I handed you all of my workouts and told you EXACTLY what to eat, but didn’t stick around to keep you accountable or support you or even do it with you, do you REALLY think you would do it?  NO, you wouldn’t!  I know this, because I have GIVEN, yes GIVEN people the workouts that I wrote and used for myself when I was losing my weight, and do you know what the response was?  They did it for a couple days and stopped!  Because they had NO SKIN in the GAME!


And I know you don’t want a sales pitch, and I HATE giving you one, but I have an AMAZING offer that I can give you for APRIL ONLY!  


So answer these questions:

1-Do you HONESTLY have 25-45 minutes a day that you COULD workout? 

If you say NO, I better NEVER hear you talk about watching TV, being bored, doing nothing, being lazy, or anything other than working and sleeping and taking care of your family 24/7, EVER EVER AGAIN! PERIOD!

2-Could you drink a shake each day to replace one meal or snack that would give you a dense supply of super foods and nutrition for the day?  

And don’t give me texture and taste excuses!  I personally love it, but in the off chance that you do not, if you have to, shake it up and slam it like a horse pill!  I drink 2 Tablespoons of Bragg’s Apple Cider Vinegar every day, and I HATE IT!  But I don’t have near the heartburn I used to have, so the benefits are totally worth that 2 disgusting minutes it takes to slam it and get the taste out of my mouth!

3-If you had a support group to help keep you accountable, do you think you would do better?  And would you be willing to also GIVE support in return in that group?

Believe  me, giving support gives you a much higher ROI that just taking all the time!  I did my best when I was part of an AMAZING group that really helped each other on their journeys.


So I leave you with this thought.  

Everyone always says that they have health GOALS.  

Do you?  

Or do you just have health WISHES?

Because a WISH is something you want and think about.  

A GOAL is something you want and DO WORK to make it happen!

If you have GOALS and are willing to do the WORK to make them happen, I would love to help you get there!  

Message me and I will help you get your tools ordered so we can get this change happening TOGETHER!

MY GOAL is to get THIS body back!  Join me!



Truth of the Journey!

This past weekend, I went to our Beachbody Quarterly meeting, called Super Saturday, in St Louis.  I used to host a small local one, but have gone to St Louis the past several, to get around other coaches.  Part because it is good for me as an introvert to get out around other people, part because it puts me in a good mindset to spread the word about my business and our amazing products, and part because I get to see some great friends.  This particular meeting was extra special, because a friend with an amazing story was there to be the speaker.  Some of you have probably heard of her, Coach Tulin?

We are very different in many ways, but each time I listen to her, I get a mm closer to being BOLDLY who I AM!  It will not happen all at once, because there are YEARS of issues buried in me about my self-image, self-worth, body shaming, depression, anxiety, fear, resistance, etc, to get passed.  But just like with my fitness, I may not go forward by leaps and bounds, but I keep going forward with tiny, baby steps.

Today however, I am going to take a BIT GIANT SCARY STEP!


I know people judge me.  People judge me for what I eat all the time, which is why I eat mostly alone at home and then it turns into an emotional eating binge because I start feeling bad about myself because someone questioned WHY I would eat a prepackaged soup at work for lunch!  OMG!  I am NOT perfect, but some days a can of soup is better than the other choices I wanted to make, so it happens!  I had one today!  But I didn’t have Taco Bell!  So see…..  Maybe not the best, but certainly not the worst of choices I could have made!

Anyway….I kinda got off script there.  I tell others every day to NOT care what others think of them, but I resist listening to that advice for myself.  I DO care! It bothers me immensely!  I feel I am supposed to be and look a certain way to do what I do, and I blame my lack of success on the fact that I do not “look” the part right now.  Especially since I fell ill over the winter and packed on some weight after 2 rounds of heavy steroids.

But after seeing Coach Tulin this weekend, I feel I am ready to take another step that will hopefully free me from some of the stress and anxiety that has built up in me over gaining some weight.  I know that I need to love and accept myself at every stage of my journey.  Even this one!

So, even though I am not where I want to be and have been struggling more than I haven’t for the last 3 years, I will NEVER GIVE UP!  I will fight for my health!

And remember, healthy isn’t always a Size 2!  For me it may be more of a 6 or an 8, and I am FINALLY OK with that!  I just want to get back to where I feel good in my own skin again.  And I WILL!

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Twenty-Eight!  WOW! 😥

Hard to believe that my sweet baby girl would be 28 today.


As I start this year of being 46 years old, I am making new commitments to myself.  To celebrate the good. Leave bad things in the past where they belong. Remember the lessons from it all.  To be grateful for even the crappiest of things that has happened in my life, because all of my experiences add up to the total that make me Me!

And that somehow includes God’s decision to keep my Marian with Him instead of letting her be here with me, and leaving me unable to have children.

Happy Birthday Marian!  Momma loves you!

I hear the cry of a child

From far, far away

And I wonder if the crying

Is my Marian trying to say:


It’s OK, so please don’t frown,

It was not your fault at all.

Now I am sitting here in Heaven

And GOD said that I could call.


So I called to say I love you,

And I hope that you’re alright.

I hope my call won’t sadden you,

And keep you up all night.


Well, I have to go now.

Please be happy and don’t fret.

‘Cause I am sitting here on GOD’s lap

Getting the best care I can get.


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I’m Here! An Update On My Health Journey



I know it has been weeks since my last blog, but honestly, I have been pretty busy.  And that is not about to change for the next couple of weeks.  But I have been thinking a lot about where I am and where I have come from and a LOT about where I want to be and where I am going!

You see, this whole illness and subsequent hormonal issue that followed is driving me CRAZY!  But the “crazy” is part of what is keeping me stagnant.  I keep saying I am letting it go and moving forward, but then I step on the scale or look in a mirror and realize how far I am from where I want to be.  Where I WAS 4 years ago!  I want THAT BACK!

But I have a bit of a different life than I did 4 years ago.  I still have the same full time job, but now I am a Beachbody Coach, a fitness studio owner, a CPT, a fitness and dance fitness instructor, and I am 4 years older, which means I am a 4 year old menopausal woman.  A lot has changed!  So what worked 4 years ago, might not be what works NOW!  But for now, I am returning to some things that I was doing when I was at that place that were different from what I am doing now.  More heavy lifting along with the classes that I teach at the studio for my cardio.

Today was WK 2 – D4 on my new routine.  It is tough getting used to lifting in the morning again, but I am sure it will come back soon.

I will do my best to get back to blogging at least once a week in May.  For now, I am taking one day at a time working on my recovery and buildup to a comeback and making sure I take a little down time when needed.


MAKE today GREAT!!!!