Mixed Emotions

I struggled yesterday to NOT workout.  I did do a few body weight squats and lunges, and had a wonderful foam rolling session, but my back was not feeling quite right yesterday.  (Side note: For those who have not read my bio, I have a 3 level fusion in the lumbar region of my back from an injury when I was 22, that took nearly 6 years, 3 surgeries, countless hours of PT, and a LOT of pain killers and muscle relaxers to get me just to be able to walk correctly.)  I am sure it was just from overdoing it on my Monday Deadlifts, but when my back HURTS, it worries me.  So I wisely, in my opinion, took it easy, and did not do my heavy leg workout and run that I had scheduled.

BUT…I always get that feeling of letting those following me, and more importantly, MYSELF, down.  But then I saw this quote today on Facebook from Edwin Bliss – “The pursuit of EXCELLENCE is gratifying and healthy. The pursuit of PERFECTION is frustrating, neurotic, and a terrible waste of time.”

To me, EXCELLENCE is defined by me striving to be the best ME I can be, and had I pushed through and tried to do my workout or run, I may have really injured myself.    My gait was REALLY off yesterday.  Anyone remember Carol Burnett’s character Mrs. Wiggins?  With her sway back and booty sticking WAY out?  LOL!  Yep, that bad:P  I am doing better today, but it is still a little stiff and achy.  I do think I will try to go to FIT and do what I can, but tire flipping may be out for tonight:(  Maybe some nice core work to continue strengthen my back so I can stop having these issues.  OH, I won’t lie, there is ALWAYS pain, but I have learned what pain is tolerable, and what pain calls for a rest day.  But as long as I keep getting stronger, maybe someday there will be NO pain at all, and NEVER a reason for a short recess:)

Until then, I will continue to work hard to be the best me I can be in the pursuit of EXCELLENCE!