Huh? The Rambling Thoughts that Come AFTER a Migraine

Today I come to you with EVERYTHING and yet NOTHING in my head.

I have not been writing much, because after my wonderful success with 21 Day Fix, LIFE got me!  I once again started “stress snacking”.  I am doing a very well thought out schedule(so as to never be doing TOO MUCH, but still having the variety) hybrid workout of Body Beast workouts for lifting, Les Mills COMBAT, and then working in my Zumba classes and of course, the FIT classes twice a week at Legacy Martial Arts!  So with all of that and working my J.O.B., and Beachbody Coaching, AND then the stress that comes with being the POA of an aging parent who can no longer do anything for himself and having NO CLUE yourself what you are doing, I have fallen into some “comfort food” eating patterns.  I haven’t even been keeping up with my personal journal, and that is usually a BAD sign for me.

After the last 3 days of suffering with the first migraine I have had in 4 years, I realized something needed to change.

I HAVE to work.

I LOVE ZUMBA and working out.  In fact I NEED the workouts to keep me not only healthy physically, but mentally!

Beachbody is MY passion.  It is my way to help others achieve their best selves.

And the stuff with my Dad?  Well, it has to be done.

And I still need time to be a wife and a mom to my furkids!

And don’t forget REST and PLAY!  They ARE important!  – here I go off on a thought….I am reminded of Brene Brown saying in her book, “The Gifts Of Imperfections”, that it is those who PLAY who live life Whole Heartedly!  I want to live my life with my WHOLE heart.  I want to love what I do to the point that it no longer feels like work.  I used to WISH for a life like that.  Well, you see where wishing has gotten me!  Now, I am working on MAKING it happen!  It took WORK to lose 125#!  It took WORK to gain 15# of muscle!  It takes WORK to keep a marriage together through all the changes we have been through over the past 11 years!  But I have done ALL of that!

So what does that mean for me NOW?   Because obviously some things AREN’T working!

NOW, I need to WORK on balance and organizing so I can LIVE MY LIFE of passion!

NOW, I need to find others to join me in my quest to help others live THEIR BEST LIVES!

NOW, I have to learn to delegate some of the things that stress me out!  Tomorrow will be the LAST day that I will be doing certain things “on my own!”  I will learn to ask for help!  I will learn to delegate!  I will MAKE the time for the things that will MAKE my life GREAT!

So, as you see, I am all over the map today.  My head has been in such a fog the last few days with this migraine, that as the fog is clearing, many things are becoming clearer.  Just 24 hours ago, you have no idea how frustrated I was.  Just HOW CLOSE I was to quitting on my dreams.  Things were stacking up against me.  In one week, my business went from closing in on a mile stone to sinking like a rock, to now looking hopeful and flourishing again.  In another situation, I felt like things were being hidden from me and/or done behind my back.  And NOT in my best interest!  But you know what???  Stuff happens!  We just have to remember that EXACTLY WHAT WE WANT, NEED, AND HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR may be just around the next corner.

NEVER GIVE UP!!!

Maybe this migraine was Gods way of giving my head a reboot.  I’ll take it!  MY miracle is on its way! 🙂

Time to MAKE today GREAT!!!