Yep, I am STILL here! It has been a crazy busy last few months! With a FT job, being a Zumba Instructor, Beachbody Coaching, selling our Dad’s house(and clearing it of 48 years worth of memories), and still trying to find time to relax occasionally with my friends and family so they remember what I look like, I have found little time to write. Which really stinks, because some of my best days always follow me spilling my guts on this blog and sharing myself with the world.
I am listening to the most amazing book on my commute to work this week, and I am finding it VERY pertinent to many of us who struggle with believing in ourselves and finding our worthiness to be the AWESOME people we have the opportunity, the desire, and the RIGHT to be! We just need to have faith in ourselves and take that leap! I KNOW I can be a magnificent Beachbody Coach, motivator, accountability leader, and all around Inspirational Badass! But I hold myself back.
One reason I think of, is that I can’t do it as fast or in the exact same way that others that I have witnessed “make it”, so I figure my way “CAN’T” be right. It “CAN’T” work!
AM I RIGHT?
If everyone was EXACTLY the same, and only connected to that ONE type of person, the world would be a pretty boring place. On my personal page yesterday, I posted a pic of Kurt Cobain with the quote, “Wanting to be someone else is a waste of who you are.” I am failing because I am trying to be someone else. I am trying to 100% duplicate what works for THEM, without adding any “Brenda” to it. Obviously that is NOT going to work.
In the book I am listening to, “You Are A Badass: How to Stop Doubting Your Greatness and Start Living an Awesome Life” by Jen Sincero, Jen says, “You are the ONLY You there is, and you are the only You there ever will be!” She goes on to say, “Do not deny the world the only chance it will ever have to bask in your brilliance.”
At first I giggled at that, and thought WHY would anyone ever want to “bask in my brilliance”? Do I even have “brilliance”? And is it REALLY worth basking in? Then I got to thinking about something someone said to me just last night. A person who I recently met for just a few minutes, told a friend, “…there is something special about her.” I of course just laughed it off as I do all compliments. But it really hit a spot in my heart that made me wonder….”Is he right?” Do I truly have these gifts to offer the world and help others SEE IN THEMSELVES what they truly can be? The old line, “If I can do it, anyone can” UGH! I heard it a thousand times when I was fat. Shoot! I have used it several times myself! I hate the way it sounds. So cliche, so insincere. BUT, I do believe that each person has a “WHY” deep inside them. And once they identify it, with that “WHY” in mind each day, they CAN accomplish what they long to achieve. Be the person they truly WANT to be.
It isn’t magic.
But it IS “MAGICAL”!
When I FINALLY found MY WHY deep inside of me, and I decided once and for all to lose the weight, quit smoking, become a casual drinker instead of a daily drunk, quit smoking 2 packs of cigarettes a day, fight to get past the depression and pain, and LIVE MY LIFE, it happened for me. When I finally realized that what I was doing was keeping me in a state of “Chronic Unhappiness” even though I was married to my best friend, had a job, a roof over my head, a car, family who cared about me, and so many other blessings, THAT is the day I was truly BORN! This IS the ME that I am meant to be! This is who I am being lead to share with the world.
Maybe you don’t need my help. Maybe you don’t need my kind of accountability coaching. Maybe you don’t need my services, products, or friendship. But that’s OK. Find those who you connect with. This is a BIG world! And there are people out there who want to help YOU grow to YOUR full potential.
As Always, MAKE today GREAT!
And I will SEE YOU AT THE TOP!!!