Failed Again!?!

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It has been brought to my attention by someone other than myself that I am too fat to wear fitted clothes right now!  WOW!  That one hit me right between the eyes.  BUT, I needed to hear it!  I have let the stress of life take me over for far too long.  Then last week, I took a Stay-cation and did very little moving, while eating whatever the heck I wanted.  Well, the results of all of this negative activity is showing up in a broader booty and waistline. 😦

So, as I struggle to get back on the right path, I feel like it is time to once again share my WHY with the world.  My WHY’s for getting healthy and fit are mainly selfish.  First and foremost, I really want to be HOT!  I know, I know….  How shallow, right?  But have you ever been the “ugly duckling”?  If you have, then you know where I am coming from.  I also want to feel AMAZING in any clothes I want to wear.  Now, I know that I am never going to look like Kate Upton in a bikini, but I am NOT Kate Upton!  I am Brenda Turnbaugh!  And being MY very best is good enough for me!  That may be a size 8/10, that may be a size 4/6, but whatever it is, as long as I know in my heart that I am giving MY life, MY VERY VERY BEST EFFORT, I am going to be OK with it!

But recently I have felt like a 100% FAILURE!  As a fitness coach, as a fitness instructor, as a role model, and even as as a person.  I realize now that none of that is true!  We all have trying times in our lives that we have to work through and get past.  But you live it, deal with it, dig deep to find your strength to move on, and never give up

So I am a little “fluffy” right now!  You know what?  FAILURES HAPPEN!  LIFE HAPPENS!

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Yes, I have some weight to lose.

Yes, I am back up to a number on the scale that I NEVER wanted to see again.

And, Yes, I feel pretty “blah” about how I look and feel right now.

But I am working on forgiving myself for letting it get out of hand, and putting the stress, guilt, self-destruction, and self-sabatoge behind me!  Honestly, what other choice do I have?

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So, I know how to lose weight.  I know how to keep 100+ pounds off for 5 years.  Now I just need to figure out how to succeed at doing it longer.  I am not worried.  I’ve met me! 🙂  And I know of my determination and enthusiasm to succeed and help others succeed in this battle against obesity! 🙂

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Next week, I start the next chapter of my story, by starting Shaun T’s Focus T25 and dedicating more time to my own fitness and nutrition program again.  I am very excited for the next 10 weeks, and would love for any of you to join in for support and accountability!

Go to my Home Page at http://www.bodybybrendat.net and fill out the form.  Then send me an email at bodybybrenda@hotmail.com telling me you are done with it, and I will help you get you started TODAY!!! 🙂

2 thoughts on “Failed Again!?!

  1. My Dear Brenda,

    Last night it was so good to see you in FIT class. I was running behind you during warm-up, and I did not see a person who was too fat for fitted clothing. I saw someone who inspires me every time I see you workout. I saw someone who gives me hope that I can lose that 100 pounds that I need to lose too, because I know someone personally who has gone before me and been successful at something so hard to accomplish. Someone who my husband says is one of the hardest workers he sees in class and who he wants to be like. More than once he has commented on the way home, “That Brenda Turnbaugh, she sure gives it her all!”
    We know you are not perfect, but you need to know that it is for that very reason that so many of us look up to you – we can’t relate to perfect, but we can relate to your struggles, and we believe in you, no matter how you look in fitted clothing!

    • Tina, I can’t thank you enough for this comment! It has been a rough past year. Adjusting and dealing has been difficult for me. But our FIT family has been a big part of keeping me sane. 🙂 I am so happy to see you back and giving it everything you have! You and your husband are amazing people!

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