Self Love!

be my friend

I saw this picture today, and is SCREAMED at me!  I am doing some work on myself to help with my body image issues.  I just started working with Dr Macayla Sarno, and this program feels like it may finally be “the thing” that is going to help me get past this.  I believe in unconditional self love.  Heck, I PREACH it CONSTANTLY!  I refuse to let my friends, students, clients, customers, etc call themselves demeaning names!  But when it comes to myself, even after all the progress I have achieved, I still see an unhealthy, unfit,  nearly 300# woman in my mirror.  And I am not going to lie, it is sometimes hard to be nice to her.

There has been a lot of Body Shaming talk going around lately. Like that dippy broad who thinks she is a comedian that thought her ABOVE AND BEYOND RUDE way of approaching “fat people” was going to make them suddenly realize that they are fat and have lose weight and take care of themselves! Because we all know it is “All about the Twinkie!” RIGHT? 😛 

And the chubby women who see the naturally thin women who if you asked them, would likely say, “I can’t gain weight. I have nutritional deficiencies. OR I can’t build enough muscle to protect my bones to save my life!” But we judge what we don’t know, so we tell them to, “Go Eat A Sandwich!”
I admit it, I have done this one. It is in all honesty, PURE JEALOUSY that I have never been able to get and stay thin in my entire life!

And don’t get me wrong, at this moment, I am not fat shaming myself, because I am finally “getting it”! Sure, I am a little “fluffier” than I would like to be right now, but I am fit, and I am happy, and I am healthier than I have ever been in my life! Did I ever tell you that at 14 years old, I went to a Free Cholesterol Screening with my Mom, and mine was exactly 200?!?

Back to my point!

We need to get past this body shaming! Of each other, yes! But even more importantly, of OURSELVES! You are the only person you live with 24 hours a day! You NEED to be your biggest cheerleader! Being the hateful, negative voice in your head, blocks you from allowing love, positivity, and sharing that you would otherwise do freely, if only you could see all the beauty that your insides leak out onto your outsides! That is what other people see!

They don’t see the muffin top. They don’t see the jiggly thighs. They don’t see the loose skin, stretch marks, or scars left over from a life of fighting hard to be your best you!

So stop telling yourself lies!  Stop being mean to the person that you should love the most!  This is the body you were given.  Take as good of care of it as you can.  Flaws and all!  It is the differences that make us unique.  It is the differences that make you YOU!

Be your best friend!

Love You!

MAKE today GREAT!!!

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Battling a Back Slide

Those of you who have been following me for some time, you know I have been having a bit of a rough time of it this past year or so.  I was struggling with a lot of guilt before my Dad’s passing, after selling his home and not dealing well with him in his altered mental state after an acute kidney problem.  I didn’t want to remember him that mean, so it was hard for me to see him.  He called me a thief for stealing his house. 😦  And that was one of the more kind things he would say when I went to see him.  So I began avoiding going to his nursing home.  It just hurt too much.  I felt like the person I was visiting just wasn’t him anymore.  Close to the end, I did have some good visits with him, but the inevitable time came, and the grief and sorrow hit me hard.

Dealing with his death brought up feelings of missing my Mom and even my daughter.  I fought very hard to not get lost in that grief.  I was surrounded by people who loved and supported me, yet I felt all alone.  And from my past, I knew that to be comforted when alone, food was always there to help.  I tried my hardest, since I was in the public eye, to continue to eat good foods, but too much is too much, no matter what you are eating.  And I started to consume more alcohol than normal.  Any extra stress(and I have ran into some doozies the past few months), and I would run straight to the garage fridge where I never failed to find my “old friend”.

And of course, I started gaining weight, which depressed me. Then the drama would start up again, and back to the booze I would run!  I was still working out, and still leading the most AMAZING Zumba class around, but you can’t outwork a bad diet!

So, a month ago, I declared that I was getting back on the horse!  For about the 50th time this year so far! 😛

But I had a goal.  I had a purpose for getting back into shape.  My friend, Stace, the world famous martial arts and fitness photographer from Kickpics, was coming to town on September 18th to take some new pictures!

This time felt different.

I was going to do it!

Then STRESS & DRAMA hit again!

Once again, I fell.  But I made a vow, that this is the last time!  If something or someone in my life isn’t there to fuel my success, it is fueling the RESISTANCE to my success.  So for the last 2.5 weeks, I have struggled, but I have fought hard to keep it together.  And I lost nearly 8#!  But I still looked in the mirror Thursday night, the day before the pictures were to be taken, and just wanted to throw my hands in the air in defeat!  I was ready to call off the photo shoot.  I am still so far from what I “think” people expect of me.  “Who will see Me as a role model with fitness pictures of THIS BODY?” I asked myself.

Then I sat and thought about all the kind things people have said to me throughout my journey.  That it is my fight, my persistence, my drive, my genuine personality, my big heart, my support, that gives them hope that if I can do it, they can too.  I have not been giving myself the love and credit that I deserve for all that I have done!

I am not a fitness model.  Probably never will be.  But I am healthy.  I am fit.  And I am trying my very best to accept myself at every stage of this journey and LOVE ME!

So, I may have fought a big fight with myself over having or not having these pictures taken, but I think I won this one!  I did the photo shoot!  And I had a blast!

So here is just one photo from that shoot.

best version of you

I have been sharing a few others over on Facebook and on IG, so please come join me there.

I will always be a work in progress, and I am sure this journey will always have some ups and downs.  But this journey is my life, and I am going to live it to the fullest, trying to be the very best version of ME! I preach self-love and self-acceptance to all of my students, customers, and clients, but I struggle with it myself.  I am not saying my war is over, but today I choose to win the battle, and I LOVE ME!

Want to fight the battle together?  I would love to help!  I am starting a new Beachbody Challenge Group the first Monday of October(10/5), message me ASAP to help you choose your Challenge Pack and get you started.  Email me at the below address or find me on Facebook! 🙂

MAKE today GREAT!!!

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How Does Your Garden Grow?

Good Morning!  Happy Friday!


With all the studying, working on a few different personal and business growth programs, working full time, struggling with some stress and…ok, I am going to say it, some depression, I need to admit that I have felt very frustrated lately in my fitness business. I WANT to help everyone! I DO! But I can’t do it for them, and I can not just keep giving it all away!  I have had people quit because it isn’t working, to find out that they weren’t actually DOING the work! Nonetheless, it makes Me feel like a failure.  But in all actuality, it has nothing to do with me!

First, people don’t appreciate something near as much if it is FREE, and second, that doesn’t make me a very smart business woman and it shows that I, AND THEY, undervalue me and what I do.

So, when I came across this today on my friend, and The Crew team founder and leader,

Coach Jimmy​’s Facebook page, it REALLY hit me.

planting flowers

And it makes so much sense to me!

In the past, when my m o was to do fad diets and take pills and magic weight loss shakes(basically liquid laxative filled with chemicals and speed) the reason I gained all the weight back, is because I didn’t WORK for the results!

7 years ago(almost to the day, as my fit-aversary was Wednesday 9/16/15), in September of 2008, I made a CHOICE!


fat pic1

I was over 140# overweight that summer, and had gotten down to 275# through some stress over medical tests that I had to have done due to some recent illness.  My doctor said my blood sugar levels were so high, I was looking at going on insulin.  I also had high blood pressure, and my cholesterol was basically the same as gravy.  But on the bright side, it was only my endometriosis giving me problems, and I did not in fact have colon cancer as had been first expected.  I smoked 1+ packs of cigarettes, along with drinking more than a 12 pack of beer each day.  Fast food, pizza, cheese, breaded ANYTHING, and sweets were not included in my diet, they WERE my diet!

But I knew that I would have to be willing to do the HARD WORK if I wanted to be healthy.  It wasn’t easy, and it did not happen fast.  Heck, I am still on my journey!  There will be slip ups, and there will be times that life just deals you a really crappy hand and  you have to deal with it.  I have been dealing with one lately, but I AM doing my best to come out on top!

It is going to take me some time to catch back up with the ideas in my head, but until I do, I will be WORKING!  Exercise at least 5 days a week, and watching my diet closely  And yes, I DO still have treat meals, so if you see me out tonight with my friends, PLEASE don’t feel the need to criticize me!  It isn’t necessary, and it is actually just a way to bully me so that YOU feel better about your own mistakes and slip ups.

My point of all of this?

If you ARE ready, this is a GREAT time to join my team!  I am ready to help plant and grow a BIG Flower Garden! 🙂


Check out my website at and email me what you are thinking, at

And don’t forget your watering can and a sweat towel, because we are going to be WORKING! 🙂

Water pouring from blue watering can onto blooming flower bed

MAKE today GREAT!!!

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This is from PiYo? REALLY?

Time for a small confession.

As a Beachbody Coach, I DO at least TRY all of our programs when they are released, but some I don’t do the full calendar, or even every workout within the program.

In September, we are offering an amazing savings on the PiYo Challenge Pack from Chalene Johnson​. And since my Crew team leader, Coach Jimmy​ is in Drench, me and 2 of the local coaches on my team decided to give it a try in my garage gym. Well, it IS called Drench, and my garage WAS about 90 degrees last night, but we had 3 fans going and we are tough girls, so we gave it a go.


That’s The Coach Jimmy on the right! 🙂

But THIS is where things get interesting!

If you know my story, you know that I have a lumbar spinal fusion from L3-S1, that was put in during my 3rd back surgery in 1999 as a result of severe instability of my spine from a 1994 work injury when I was 22 years old working as a CNA at a Veterans’ Nursing Home.  This is what my back looks like during that surgery and now in X-ray.

back fusion

lumbar fusion

Since that fusion, my balance or flexibility have never been even close to what it used to be. Atrophied hamstrings and psoas and a cut erector spinea muscle being the biggest reasons. Fear of moving and hurting myself worse and depression that resulted in a love affair with prescription drugs, booze, and my couch, all while ballooning up to nearly 300# also didn’t help.

But back to my point…

We were all SOAKED!!!  We looked like we had gone swimming in our clothes!  At one point, I changed my head position, and sweat RAN off the top of my head!

post Piyo

Conclusion of the story?  PiYo is an AMAZING all encompassing fitness workout!

Not only does it work on flexibility and stretching and core work like you expect from the name, but also cardio and strength training!  WOW!  And this girl is a bit sore this morning.  I just Thank God that I used my Beachbody Performance Recharge last night, or I may not have been able to get out of bed today!  😀

So, if you are willing to start at the beginning and work up to the more advanced workouts, I am 100% positive that you would get FABULOUS results from this program.  I did have to slow down and/or do the modifications for a few things, but maybe with a little more PiYo in my life, my balance would actually improve! 🙂  I am willing to give it a try and plan to add it to my regime more often.  Just maybe not DRENCH again too soon 😉

If you are interested in trying this amazing program for yourself, contact me at any of the places below, and we can get you started today!

MAKE today GREAT!!!

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