I’m Too Old, I Give Up!

Here are some FACTS about my life:

In 74 days, I will be 45 years old.

I am permanently partially disabled, and have been so since I was 22 years old, and in 1999, I was told that there was nothing more that could be done to repair my back, so to just be gentle with it and walk as often as I could.  And by all means, NEVER lift too much!

I have degenerative disc disease, arthritis, RA, an L3-S1 Spinal fusion, and Raynaud’s Syndrome.

I am a food addict, and have battled my weight for as long as I can remember.

I weighed over 12# when I was born, I was a chunky kid, an overweight teen, an obese young adult(except for a few times when the bulimia, laxatives, diet pills, drugs, fad diets, and starvation worked for more than a few weeks at a time), and was considered morbidly obese by the time I was 24!

I have also dealt with abuse, mental illness, the loss of a child, depression, losing my Mom who also was my best friend 6 weeks before my wedding, addiction to prescription drugs and alcohol, and battling feelings of believing that I am 1000% Worthless!

In the early spring of 2008, as my scales tipped closer and closer to 300#, I knew something had to change.  I had a health scare, that turned out to be “just” symptoms of Endometriosis, but still had no idea what to do.  I was ready to totally give up on life!


Here are a few OTHER facts about my life-

From July 2008-June 2010, I lost over 140#

In May 2010, I ran my first Half-Marathon.

In April 2011, I ran my first, and probably ONLY, FULL Marathon!  In under 5 hours no less! 🙂

In October of 2011, I started working out at Legacy Martial Arts, and loved it.  Here I was also introduced to Zumba.

October 2012, I became certified as a Zumba Instructor

In February 2013 I became a Beachbody Coach.

In October 2015 I was Certified as a Certified Personal Trainer through the National Academy of Sports Medicine.

I love to learn about different theories on fitness and nutrition.

I have dealt with injuries, some minor some not so minor, losing my dad, depression, people not believing in me and even trying to tear me down, and pressed on!


Today, I at nearly 45 years old, I am embarking on what I truly believe is going to be the most successful and prosperous time of my life!  I am fit.  I am healthy. I have an AMAZING growing business.  I have a husband who supports my dreams.  I have people in my life who truly care about MY Happiness.  I have found out that there really IS something to this Personal Development thing, and that not ALL of the books are just filled with “feel good hocus pocus”!  And I am finally at peace enough with myself that I honestly don’t care if people don’t like me, or I don’t fit into some mold that “THEY” think I should fit into with the way I look or act.  I get messages from people all the time telling me that I inspire, motivate, help, encourage, etc…. them, just by being my true self!  My heart is full and with each one of those messages, I know deeper in my heart that I am EXACTLY where I am supposed to be and doing EXACTLY what I am supposed to do.  And after searching for years to find happiness in being “skinny”, I FINALLY know what TRULY makes ME happy, and no one can take that from me!

And I also now KNOW that I am not now, nor will I ever be PERFECT!  I also know that that is OK!


So, I honestly remember a time when 45 was O.L.D.!!!

But not now.

Not me!

I am just getting started! 🙂

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Love. Peace. And Fitness!

MAKE today GREAT!!!



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How Bad Do You Want It?

Not being able to do something a certain way, does NOT mean that you CAN’T!  It all comes down to, “How bad do you want it?”
It means you modify it until you can do it right. And ditch your ego and realize that some things, you may NEVER do perfect! With my spinal fusion, degenerative disk disease, and arthritis, do you REALLY think that every rep of every exercise looks EXACTLY like it does when it is performed by someone with a body that doesn’t have those issues? NO! And I am 100% aware that there will be some things I will ALWAYS have to modify!
Do you think when I say I run, that I mean like a gazelle? NOPE! Sometimes, you would swear that I am running so slow that I may in fact actually be going backwards. But it is MY version of running and I can deal with that!  I may be the last one to cross the finish line, but I still take pride in the fact that I toed the line to start with!
Some of you say I am an inspiration to you, knowing that I have overcome so much, but then say that You CAN’T do the same???  It is really up to you!  Let the fact that I KNOW my body’s limitations and refuse to let them hold me back be what inspires you!  Let the fact that I do struggle, but I keep pushing forward, be what inspires that You CAN do the same if you only BELIEVE you can!
If you TRULY want something, you will figure out a way to move forward with it.
If not?
You will find every excuse in the book to NOT do it!
MAKE today GREAT!!!!

Are your excuses KILLING you?

Are you letting the BS story in your head keep you not only from your goals, but from really living?

I don’t have time!
I am busy!
I am sore!
I need motivation!
I am too old!
I am too out of shape! – MY PERSONAL FAVORITE!!!!

As a Beachbody Coach, Zumba Instructor, and NASM Certified Personal Trainer, these are all excuses that I hear all the time! I have even heard a few of them in my own head from time to time.

But you must at these times, REMEMBER YOUR WHY!!!

WHY do you want to get healthy?
WHY do you want to lose weight?
WHY do you want to be fit?

Are you sick?
Are you sick of being the one that holds your family back from doing things?
Are you sick of being too tired to do anything?
Are you sick of all the medications that you have to take just to get by and stay alive?
Are you sick of watching others do things and have fun, while you sit on the sidelines?
Are you sick and tired of HURTING ALL THE TIME?
Are you sick of being constantly uncomfortable?
Are you sick of worrying about who will take care of your children, or even your pets in my case, if you keep going like this and die?

EVERYTHING above is part of MY WHY!

I was the Queen of Excuses and building a life of monumental nothingness! I watched TV like it was a second job, I smoked like a chimney, and drank like a fish! Add on to that all the unhealthy, fat laden foods that I used to feed myself and my husband, and we were simply living in a fashion that we were just waiting to die!

But the time came to get serious living or get serious dying!

It was time to give up the excuses!

Did that mean I was suddenly strong and fit?


It meant that I had finally seen that there was a better way to deal with my pain and disability than rolling over and accepting it as if I had NO control over anything in my life.

I still have back pain.
I still have arthritis.
I still battle addiction EVERY DAY!
I still deal with depression.

But every day I show up and FIGHT for the results I want! Some days I win. Some days I lose. But EVERY DAY is a chance for me to make my life better, and I for one choose to take it!

Excuses are tools

This is me near my heaviest and most unhealthy, about 280#. I was at a family bridal shower, and could not wait to get it over with so I could get back home to my couch, cigarettes, and case of beer! I used every excuse I could think of, especially my disability due to my spinal fusion, to get me out of doing just about anything!


Love. Peace. And Fitness!

MAKE today GREAT!!!



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My Awesome Friend!!!

When I started at Legacy Martial Arts 4 years ago, I met an AWESOME lady named Tina!  Her son was in TKD, and is actually now a very accomplished Black Belt and has grown into an amazing young man over the last 4 years, but that is not a surprise, having wonderful parents like Tina and Jack.  Tina had come to FIT class off and on, battling injuries, illness, and some physical limitations, but she ALWAYS came back!  In January of 2015, she and her husband jack started doing FIT class together to start their 26th year of marriage with something fun and healthy that they can do together.

Due to scheduling issues, I have not been making it to FIT class lately, but Tina and Jack continue to go every week!  And it brought me a HUGE SMILE this morning when I found out that Tina was voted FIT Class Student of 2015!!!!

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Tina often tells me that I am a big inspiration to her, but I wanted to do this Recognition Blog Post so that she knows what a big inspiration she is to me AND MANY OTHERS at Legacy!!!


Love you Girl!  Keep up the AMAZING work! 🙂

And Welcome to the Club! 😉

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Love. Happiness. And Fitness!!!

And as always…

MAKE today GREAT!!!



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