Another Step On the Journey of #ComeBack2017

As many of you know, I tend to have a bit of an addictive personality.  OK, that was putting it a bit mildly. 😛  But if you know that, then you also know, that I have been working hard since mid-2008 to make improvements in my life.

I have been cigarette free for over 8 years.

I have not abused any narcotic pain killers for about 7 years.

And I HAD my alcohol consumption under control for a few years in there too.  Yes, I said HAD.  Over the last couple of years, the growing desire to numb myself to some stress and pain, I have been relying a bit too much on my old friend, Booze, for relief!  And unfortunately, in addition to my old love of beer,

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in no particular order 😉  And NO, Dave did NOT drink any of that Moscato!

 

Turns out, I am not the only one.  I have joined a group of business and fitness friends who have decided that we need to take back our control over this vice.  So we are joining together to extend to one another the same kind of support and accountability that we give to our customers/clients in our Fitness and Nutrition Support Groups.  We are calling it Booze Free February!

As you can imagine, this has the potential to be difficult for me.  I ask that you please support me in this.  If not by helping me with accountability, at least by not putting me in a situation where I would be tempted.  Yes, I DO realize that the Super Bowl is this Sunday, and a few BOTTLES of wine are generally on the menu for Valentine’s Day, but I am committed to this group and intend to do my very best!

It is just like with a fitness and nutrition routine.  You can ALWAYS find an excuse or upcoming event to NOT start, but who are you REALLY fooling???  I can guarantee it is not Me!  And my guess is it isn’t you either.

SO….since I will need a LOT of distraction over the next 28 days, I will probably be a VERY attentive coach, which makes NOW a GREAT time to get in my Support and Accountability Group.   You do need to purchase some tools to be in the group, so message me ASAP for details!

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I have a great Bonus for the next 2 people who join the group, so email me NOW! 😉 bodybybrendat@outlook.com

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Priorities

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GOOD MORNING!!!!
I recently had someone question my priorities because I took time off from my business while I was sick. Didn’t matter to them that I was EXTREMELY sick and spent over a week fighting to take each breath and stay out of the hospital. Honestly, they didn’t even care enough to ask, they just made the judgement that I was being lazy with a cold!
HOWEVER…
My students and clients who come to my studio or visit my page or groups regularly for motivation, accountability, and support, were behind me 100% to take the time off and GET WELL!
Well….THAT answered the question in my mind of where my highest priorities should be right now!
It is with those who believe in me and have my health and well being in their hearts, because they know that I have nothing but their health and well being in mine!  Those who recognize how hard I have worked to take a shell of a run down house and make it into a studio where people feel at home and can come to not only workout, but feel like they “belong”.
So, I extend my invitation to all of you who that setting sounds like a place you would like to be.  My class schedule can be found on my website www.bodybybrendat.net .
And the Fitness/Weight Room should be completed around the mid-March!!!  After a few snags, financial issues, and health/injury speed bumps, things are really starting to come together now!
First class is FREE!  Grab a friend and come try us out! 🙂
Contact me at bodybybrendat@outlook.com for more information on class descriptions, availability, and pricing.

One Step At A Time

This picture pretty much sums up how I have been feeling the last week.
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Why?
 
Because I have been so sick that I have not been able to help anyone with their health and fitness goals for a WEEK, including myself! But, I realize that sometimes, God makes us slow down for a reason. I have truly been struggling with trying to find balance in my life recently. And this has forced me to stop and take a look at it.
 
I am a fitness studio owner.
I am a Group Exercise Instructor.
I am a Beachbody Health and Fitness Coach.
I am an NASM Certified Personal Trainer. AND
I am a full time employee in a pharmacy business office.
 
BUT, most importantly, I am Mrs Brenda Turnbaugh!  Wife to Tony and FurMom to 4 amazing little 4-leggers!
 
And I need taken care of too. I need my own workouts. I need self-care time.  I need to take the time to get proper nutrition.  I need to spend time with my husband NOT thinking about work! I need to make time to cuddle my furbabies. AND I need to make time for my students, customers, and clients without giving the impression that I am available 24/7/365. But all of those things may not fit into EVERY 24 hours, while still working full time and running the studio. So I need to find my balance. And I won’t be bullied or listen when being talked down to for taking the Doctor Instructed time off for my health and my wellbeing from anyone. No matter how near and dear to my heart they are. Because without my health, how can I possibly help and serve anyone else, right?
 
So, I am moving on from this rage and accepting the time off that I had to take as a gift. Am I rested? No, I have never been more exhausted in my life!  I am VERY Sick, Ya’All! Am I recovered? Not yet. Will I get there? YES! In time. I have not given my body the permission to heal from stress that started 3 years ago. I never took the time off to truly HEAL, and it manifested into me finally getting so ill that I was forced to take the time off.  And I see that now.  And I am ready to let it go.  I am ready to release that stress and worry no more about it.  God has it now and He will help me through.  He will help me find my balance and my success.
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I still believe that 2017 is going to be an amazing year in my life.  I just have to slough off the past first!  And  a LOT of past has been purged over the past 6 days as I laid in my recliner alone with my thoughts.  My vision too blurred to read, my ears to muffled to hear clearly, and the rest of my body racked with so much pain that I felt I would go mad!
Today as I still feel on the edge of falling off a cliff, I sit here at my work desk.  My lungs burning, my head throbbing, and my vision and hearing still a bit iffy.  But sometimes choices are not our own when our job is to serve another man’s dream.  My dreams ARE part of my journey, and the journey towards my dreams is also the path to freedom.  And that path is mastered by taking one step at a time.
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Why YES! I AM a Beachbody Coach!

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I actually got asked recently WHY I stick with Beachbody and Shakeology since they are obviously not working for me since I am gaining weight.

Well….it is time to come clean!

Do I drink my Shakeology EVERY DAY?  YES!  But there are MANY days over the past 8 months or so, that it has been the ONLY healthy thing I have put in my body for the day!  Not going to lie about it and hide it anymore, but I do need to explain it.

I have never been one to feel deep in my gut that I deserved any better than I have.  I was born into a wonderful working class family and I feel inherently sentenced to never being anything more than that.  So becoming an entrepreneur often feels WAY OUTSIDE my wheel box!  Since joining Beachbody, I have been doing my best to change that mindset.  I have been mildly successful in Beachbody, paying a few bills here and there, and most months making enough to at minimum pay for our Shakeology.  But with each ebb and flow of the business, such as losing customers and coaches, and going through periods where I could not take one more rejection from someone, I would feel myself reluctantly pulling away from it.  And then I would go back to questioning my worth and wondering if I am really capable of being anything more than someone else’s employee.

When I started teaching dance fitness and fitness classes, I started to feel a confidence that I had never felt.  Then in May of 2016, we bought the building that is now Phoenix Fitness with Body By BrendaT.  At that time, I started questioning everything!  And I got REALLY F-ing SCARED!  I was excited.  AM excited to have the place, but it scares me!  I still don’t know if I am doing everything right as far as running a business.  And being afraid causes me stress.  Stress causes me to look for coping mechanisms.  My past coping mechanisms were NOT good things.  So yes.  I have been depressed and scared which has lead me to drinking and binge eating a LOT over the past several months.  I have gained back 25# since my June photo shoot.  And I am feeling 100% NOT motivating or inspirational to even myself, so it has been hard for me to feel like I could possibly help others.

But without Shakeology and Beachbody and my friends that I have made through fitness, I honestly KNOW that I would be in a much darker place right now.  Today, I can accept that this is just means I have hit a speed bump.  It does NOT mean that I ran into the side of a mountain!  I will continue to move forward.  It may be slow, and there might even be more speed bumps along the way of my comeback.  But I WILL come back!  I AM coming back!

During the next 29 Days(I am already on Day 2 of the first 30 days of my comeback) I will be documenting all of it on Social media.  Some VERY public, and some in private support groups.  But it will be documented and I will succeed!  WHY?  Because I know how to workout and eat right, but as “The Coach” I sometimes don’t reach out for the same support that I offer to others.  NOT this time!  I need the support and accountability, and I am getting it!

If you are looking for that kind of support and accountability, I would love to have you in my Beachbody Support Group.  Message me at bodybybrendat@outlook.com for more details!

When you KNOW you live RURAL!!!

This is one of those days that I REALLY WISH it was not illegal to use a phone while driving!  Because the mental picture in my head of what happened this morning is freaking hysterical!

Picture it!  I am turning off of the 2 lane rural Illinois Highway 24 and getting on to the Interstate to come to work in Quincy.  At the end of the on ramp, is an Illinois State Trooper with his lights ON going about 2 miles an hour.  Since I have no idea what is happening at this time, and there is no one else behind me, or even coming up on the Interstate, I slow to a crawl.  This is when I realize that the officer is NOT alone!  I look to the passenger door, and realize right next to his car is a VERY LARGE black cow!  This in and of itself was funny.  But the scene that followed left me in tears the rest of the way to work.

Like  I said, I was only going about 2-maybe 4 miles per hour as I approached this scene.  The State Trooper was stopped at the time that I was coming upon him.  The cow was staring in the passenger window.   As she defiantly peered at the officer, she took 3 or 4 steps forward.  So the officer moved forward.  The cow then looked forward and took a few more steps.  So the officer again moved forward.  The cow stopped and looked in the window again, as if to say WTF?!?!  AAAHAHAHAHHAAHAAAA!!!  I was dying at this point.  I finally decide that I really should go on around them and get to work, and as I did the officer looked at me and rolled his eyes as if to say, “THIS?  THIS is how my morning is starting?”  LOL!

So, even though I did not get a picture of it, I hope that I painted a good enough picture of it in your head that you got a small chuckle too.

 

I imagine this is kind of the look the officer was getting!  hehehehe 😀

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Have an AMAZING Friday and remember, if you want to be in my Beachbody Shakeology and Fitness Accountability and Support Group that starts on Monday January 9th, you need to email me ASAP at bodybybrendat@outlook.com so we can get your order placed!

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Time for a “Do-Over”!

Happy New Year!

Did you make any resolutions?

I have said for the past few years, that “Resolutions really aren’t my thing anymore.”

Why?  Because I was clicking along at a pretty happy and healthy pace.

Well…2016 hit, and I think it is time for a “Do-Over!”  LOL!  id-like-do-over1.jpg

And although it was good to me in MANY ways, sometimes even good things can bring a lot of stress into ones life.  And some people, and YES, I am 1000% talking about me here, do NOT deal with it well!  This has actually been building up to me spiraling out of control, since my Dad started really going downhill 3 years ago.  The guilt.  The pain.  The eventual LOSS.  Then add in this past summer, the opportunity of a lifetime falling into my lap, my stress level climbed.  And to put a cherry on the top of it, menopause is now in full swing!!!  And although I have known for years that I cannot have children, the finality of menopause has been a crushing blow to how I feel as a woman.

What does all of this mean?   Do I REALLY want a do-over?

NO, but it does mean that I have spent the last year or so NOT practicing what I preach!  For the most part, outside of my Shakeology, my nutrition has STUNK!  But I am going to be brutally honest with you all here!  Because it is time I am honest with ME!  I have been drinking again.  A LOT!  And it makes me feel so ashamed, that I have been becoming more and more disconnected from the life I have grown to love so much!  Something that I had never felt before and miss greatly.  Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying I have lost my passion. I still love teaching my classes and doing all of my Beachbody coaching and helping those who will commit to doing the work, get results!

But those results don’t come from a magic pill, potion, sticker, or wrap, they come from hard work and commitment to eating healthy and moving!  My clients and customers who do what I say instead of what I have been doing, have seen far better results recently than I have.  I have remained diligent in my efforts to keep moving with Phoenix Fitness with Body By BrendaT opening, and the fact that I do still 100% believe in Beachbody programs, and do them as often as I physically can while teaching classes 6 days a week.  But my revisiting my dependency on alcohol has derailed my nutrition to a level that I am ashamed to admit.  I have now gained back nearly 50# from my lowest weight, or 35# from my healthiest weight, and I feel like SHIT!

So, I am in essence making a resolution to stop worrying about what everyone else is doing, and worrying about what they think of me, and get back to working on MY journey.  Of course, I still hope you all join me, and the invitation to join one of my Support and Accountability Groups still stands.  Just email me at bodybybrendat@outlook.com to get all of the details.  I will share the ups and the downs, but I will also share the boring, mundane, NON-sexy things that one MUST do daily on my Body By BrendaT Facebook page, if you really want to take control back of your physical and emotional and mental health!

Time to stop hiding from the success that is begging me to come out and play!

 

MAKE today the start of something GREAT!!!