I know that seems like an odd way for a health and fitness professional to start a blog. Especially after my recent declaration that I was going to bust my ass to get my body back to where it was in 2011-2012, where I felt at my best. But if you follow me on social media, you also know that I am having some health struggles that I wasn’t quite expecting to pop up and give me so many problems. That said, here is where I am at now and I will start by LOVING Myself at this point and stop caring what everyone else thinks, and just get back to working on feeling great and being where I want to be!
As I was laying wide awake in bed this morning after yet another restless night, still trying my best to stretch my body after my 2nd snooze alarm had went off, I started thinking. I was laying there in so much pain that I actually started praying for God to take it all away. RA, OA, degenerative disc disease, the pain associated with my titanium spinal fusion, DOMS from the work I did this weekend at the studio, the feelings of failure for not being in better shape, and more than likely some over trained/over stressed muscles.
I do my best to FORGET that in all honesty, I was declared permanently partially disabled 24 years ago. In fact, I was on full disability for a couple years until I forced myself to go back to work because I didn’t want that to be my life. For the next 16 years, I drugged up and drank to keep my pain in check, or at least become numb to the fact that I hurt so badly, as I went from being pleasantly plump to ballooning to nearly 300# in the years following my spinal fusion in 1999.
If you have been following me on Facebook, you know that I finally understand what the meaning of having EXTREMELY HIGH CORTISOL means, after doing much research. And, as always, I am doing my best to lower it with rest, nutrition, natural supplements, and oils. Is it working? Well, it has only been 2 days, so let’s give me a bit of time to figure this all out!
Will it be easy? NO! But know that I will not give up on ME! But my own health is important so I can continue to help others. And I have been neglecting it lately due to being busy and added personal stress that I had let hurt me, even though many didn’t understand why I let it get to me so much.
But these are the reasons WHY I got run down, which is WHY I got sick, which is WHY I took antibiotics and steroids, which is WHY my cortisol and other hormones are so off and my RA is flared up, and WHY I have to make some changes.
SO….besides taking care of my health and only worrying about what is important to me – My family, my friends, my studio, my clients/students, and my continuing education and personal development to help me be a better coach, trainer, and leader – I will not be entertaining any other “junk” that has been causing me stress and insomnia, which are the scientific proven ROOT of my current issues. And that includes the list below! Those start RIGHT NOW! 🙂
All of that said, I will continue to do my support and accountability groups with people who REALLY want my help, teach all of my classes, and will be MAKING time to take care of ME! 🙂
So if you are SERIOUS about wanting to start a healthy nutrition program and fitness routine, message me about all of the options I have available for you, whether you are local or need an online support system. I am available on Facebook or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org