Waves of Hate

Just when I thought the progress was real.

The frustration is what is real.

Getting it out will make it better.

I WILL Rise Up!

Waves of Hate

Hate returned again today

Tried so hard not to let it

It seems to come in waves

Two steps forward

Ten steps back

Looked at my reflection

I know what I should be

I know what I am

Weakness

Laziness.

Undisciplined

Pathetic

Requiring a release

A different kind of pain

Something to take the loathing away

The reflection looking back at me knows.

I really tried to be better

I tried to rise up

Only to end up back in the ashes

Thought there was a purpose

A calling still coming

Once again met with deafening silence

Will the pieces ever fit

Will there ever be a whole

Maybe it is in the crimson stream

Looking there brings silence