Drift

I can not explain them
These jacked up feelings.
I want to stop
I want to be open
I want to have it all
I do not want the alternative
I do not want the darkness
I do not want the loneliness
I want to thrive
I want to move forward
Party of one or two
The question remains
A few good times
How fast the bad can erase it all
Apprehension
Elation
Uneasiness
Hope
Crushing Fear
Ripped to shreds
They all exist together inside me
I’m exhausted
I don’t know if I can go on;
How does great go so bad
Two steps forward three steps back
Want to believe
Will we ever find the answer
Is there an answer?
Maybe the answers are on the other side
Maybe the answers are in the land of deep slumber
Time to drift