Miss Me?

Where did you go?
Why did you leave?
What did I do?
Could I have done better?
Been better?
Questions run through my head.
If I was different
If my sins were fewer
My problems less daunting
My love greater
My commitment stronger
Would you have stayed?
Could you have stayed?
Did it even matter?
I continue to punish
I continue to loathe
I still don’t feel I did anything wrong
But what I think doesn’t matter
And just when I think it’s over
When I think I could move on
A glimmer of hope
Then your truth once again slams down
You remind me of how insignificant I was
I am
I just wish I knew
I wish you would have said
Did I ever make you truly smile?
Did you ever really care?
I loved you in your darkness
I loved you with my light.
It wasn’t enough
You left me
Now that time and space parts us
Do you think of me?
Do you miss me?
Was I just a joke?
Was it all a lie?
Was I ever any more significant than
A single speck of dust?