Moving Forward

Confusion tightens its grip
What am I to do?
I need guidance
Oh how I wish my Mom was here.
Am I a failure?
Maybe.
But I kept it together!
Longer than most thought I could
Is it time to move on?
What if I let people down?
Who am I kidding?
I already have.
Things change.
That one thing we can count on
I want it all
The sun, the moon, and the stars
But I have to choose what is best
Best for me
Best for the life I am in now
Not the life that feels like is gone
Slipped out of my grasp
Am I a failure?
Or have my goals just changed?
My 15 minutes is over
But I still want to fly.
Stay under the radar this time.
Do it quietly.
Self love and positivity
Are all I long for.
Yet I am holding on to anchors
Anchors that hold me to a past that is gone.
Deep Breaths
Live for Me
Return to the pureness
When I did it for the joy
Time to search deep
Find where I went
I know I am still in there
I miss me
Time to leave this dying dream
Time to take that next scary step
And Move Forward
To where new possibilities live.

Boo 10-4-21