So it is time to give 2021 the big middle finger and tell it where to get off! It’s been a rough year. And to be honest, I have a lot of changes happening right now. Within the next couple of weeks, my business as I know it will cease to exist. Yes, I AM still an NASM-CPT with specializations in Group Fitness and Corrective Exercise. And I am in the process of earning my 3rd specialization certificate from the National Academy of Sports Medicine. One that I am not yet ready to talk about until I know a bit more. I am also taking courses with Brookbush Institute of Human Movement Science. So am I done or am I taking a break to get myself back on track? I can’t answer that yet, but I love to learn, so I am not ready to give it all up just yet.
And I LOVE doing my monthly challenges. The ladies who commit and come back month after month, even if they didn’t make it to the end of the month before, are my biggest inspiration these days. They are amazing!
But I have new goals for myself now that I have a better sense of peace with my heart health. I will probably never be a size 4-6 again, but that’s ok. I just want to be healthy and feel comfortable in my own skin again.
I was feeling really low there for awhile. Like having to close the bulk of my business made me a failure. You know what? I TRIED! And so the physical brick and mortar studio didn’t work out the way I wanted it to. Again, I tried! It was HARD! But I did it for 5 years. That doesn’t mean I will fade away. My darkness had taken over again for far too long. But I am finally ready to once again start looking for my light. And when I find it, you better be wearing shades, because I am going to fucking SHINE!
I was asked recently what I have learned over this year and what I need to change to make 2022 better for Me. I learned that not all “friends” have your back. Not all people who smile at you actually wish you well. People can say they love you and still plunge a sword swiftly and directly through your heart. And you probably won’t even see it coming. Also, sometimes your biggest cheerleaders will be people you have actually never met. And what will I do differently this year. As cynical as it sounds, I will protect my heart a little closer. From new people. From people who say/pretend they care. And especially from my own harsh, self-deprecating words.
But the message I mostly want you to take from this post, is don’t focus too much on what we are leaving behind. It may be in our past for a reason. It may not have served us the way we needed.
Also don’t focus on the endgame of your goals. Focus on today! What is your next step? Don’t worry about step #55490843082 if you haven’t taken steps 1-55490843081 yet. Life is a journey. The timing of our ultimate destination is unknown. So let’s not waste any more time worrying about what MIGHT go wrong.