ICU

Beep
Buzz
Ding
Screech
Whoosh
Whistle
Wheeze
Praying
Last Rites
Sobbing
Screams
The noise that
My heart makes
As it breaks
Each time
I have to watch
The love of my life
Drift farther away
Will he make it
Back to me
Does God need him more
Nurses
Doctors
Specialists
Procedures
Scans
Scans
More Scans
All have done their part
All have been
Compassionate
Empathetic
Kind
Thorough
None have fixed you
None have been able to
Give you back to me
I’m not mad
They’re doing their best
All that is left to do is
Pray
Ask for you back
Or settle for you being
Freed from this pain
Until He decides, we wait
We hope, and we pray
If you never fully come back to me,
I hope above all
That you know without doubt
I Love You!

Boo 5-9-22

If you do not follow me on Facebook, so don’t know where this is coming from, my life has been thrown for a loop recently. I’m too tired to go through everything, but on 4/20 my husband had a spontaneous subarachnoid hemorrhage. A brain bleed. At the time of writing, he has been in a neuro ICU at a hospital 2 hours from home for 23 days, and the ride we have been on is crazy. He had finally lost the EVD tube in his brain and the ventilator. Today, when we thought we were getting moved out of the ICU…he had seizure that affected him drastically. He had a very sharp decline in his mental status due to the hydroencephalitis that returned with a vengeance!Both tubes have i been replaced and he is heavily sedated again. At least for tonight!

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