15 Years

15 Years since I heard your laugh.

15 Years since I hugged you last.

15 years since I saw your face.

15 years since you left this place.


15 years ago a hole in my heart went dark.

15 years ago I saw just how much you left your mark.

15 years ago I questioned God’s reasoning.

!5 years ago I realized you would miss my wedding.


15 years have passed since you left my side.

15 Years have passed since I laid you to rest in your dress that you were to wear as Mother of the Bride.

15 Years have passed since I received a call that would change my life forever.

15 Years have passed since you left for your home with our Savior.


I just want you to know that I still miss you every day.  And that I pray that I make you proud of me in Everything I do.  I am better for having known you and even if we were not Mother and Daughter, I still would have wanted to be Your Friend!

mom and dad I Love You Mom! ❤

Feeling Like The Little Engine That Could!

People often ask me, “What MOTIVATES you to do what you do?”

“What makes you want to get up at 5AM, to do hour long workouts when you are going to be teaching fitness classes that evening?”

And my favorite, “WHY do you do it?”

My answer, “Because I am not dead yet.”

There will always be a new goal.  Most people’s lives are not lived in a straight line.  There are twists and turns, ups and downs, sometimes full on downward spirals!  But you have to work through them.  There really is no other choice.  I had to learn VERY young that life was not always going to be sunshine and rainbows.  You have to see the light at the end of the tunnel and RUN!  Run as fast as you can towards the light!  Sometimes the light is deceiving, and takes you backwards, but you learn that until you are where you want to be, you must keep looking for YOUR light!



So where am I at NOW?

The last 7+ weeks have been hard!  I’m not going to lie and say that they haven’t been.  I am striving to do my very best while participating in a Beachbody Coaches Exclusive Test Group for 80 Day Obsession.  The only workouts I missed was when I was down with the flu and couldn’t stay awake for more than 20-30 minutes at a time for 3-4 days!  But I jumped back in after I rested my body and got right back to it!  I would have let that kill my fire in the past, but NOT THIS TIME!

I am determined to see what I can do with this program!  I am determined that going back to this type of program, is going to be what “fixes” me. You see, I have been fighting adrenal fatigue and getting my nutrition back on track in a BALANCED way for a long time.  I have experimented with so many other “Nutrition Plans”, the fads, the restrictive, the ones that take away whole food groups, you name it.  They weren’t for ME!  I am not saying that they won’t work for anyone, I am saying that they don’t work for me!  So all I can teach and advise on, is what I believe works best, which for me, is losing at a moderate pace with proper nutrition and exercise.

So WHY did I stray from this way of eating in the first place, you ask???  Because after going back to a few bad habits and going through some stress and depression that took my focus elsewhere, I decided to test some of the popular theories, and I ended up screwing up my metabolism so bad, that it has now taken over a year to get it fired back up!  And going back to fueling my body with good clean foods in a balanced way is simply what works for me!  Am I dropping HUGE amounts of weight and reaching my goal in record time?  Nope.  And I am fine with that!  I am almost 47 years old, have had hormone and weight issues for most of my life, and menopause is not making things any easier! But I keep going.  I could use it as an excuse, but where is that excuse going to get me?  I am at times depressed, cranky, and bloated, in pain most of the time, and I work long hours.  But I want to be better.  So I WORK to make it better!  Because I know the one sure fire way to never see progress, is to do nothing!


So, my Call To Action for you is this –

If you are ready, SERIOUSLY READY, to work on your health and nutrition, whether you are local to me and want to come to Phoenix Fitness with Body By BrendaT, or work with me online through a Beachbody program, I am here to help!  The nutrition program that I am going to put you on will be the same!  To get the BEST results, you need the total package-

1 -A Fitness Program

2-A Nutrition Plan


And yes, I will expect a commitment to ALL THREE!


Does that mean you never get to have a day off from exercise, or a drink out with friends, or a slice of pizza again???

Absolutely NOT!  But I will expect the level of commitment for the level of results you desire!

SO, What are your GOALS?

Email me at bodybybrendat@outlook.com so you can join me on this journey as soon as today!

Change Your Attitude!


Yup!  I am GUILTY of having a BAD ATTITUDE!


And it has been wearing on me. Usually, I try my best to be the one who brings others up all the time, but as the saying goes, attitudes ARE contagious!  So if you find yourself surrounded by cranky, negative Eeyores too much, it can start to rub off.  That recently happened to me.  Tension at work, tension at home, tension on the news, tensions EVERYWHERE I turned, so it seemed.  Nothing just felt positive and HAPPY!  And I felt it taking a toll.  I felt a darkness creeping back into my soul that I had not felt in a long time.  It was sadness. Bitterness. Loneliness. Depression. FEAR!

Tuesday, someone called me out!  She basically told me to stop feeding the negativity!  That I was giving it power by sharing it with the world through posts on my Facebook Page that were WAY more dark than I have posted since she knew me.  I am human.  I do go through rough patches, and I do unfortunately have a tender heart and get my feelings hurt easily.  But in the past several years, I have trained myself to try my best to shrug it off and look at the bright side of things.  Lately it had become harder and harder to see ANY light.

As I teeter back and forth on the verge of menopause, and fighting adrenal fatigue for the past 18 months or so, I have grown increasingly upset with what is going on in my body!  I worked so hard to get where I was, just to have something FLIP inside me and make me gain 35# in about 8 weeks???  WTH?   Seriously, I felt betrayed! I was STILL working hard, so WHY?!?!?  And the thing about betrayal, is once you feel that way about one thing, it can start to creep into your head and really mess with your thoughts about other things.

But ALL who know me will be happy to hear that I am making conscious effort to turn it all around!  I hope that my positive attitude will once again return and help myself and others see the wonderful things that ARE HAPPENING, even though our world is being portrayed as only darkness lately.  It is hard to remember when we see kids killing kids and future generations needing a “safe space” to avoid growing up and taking any responsibility for what is happening in their world.  It is scary!  I get it!  BUT…..There is no “safe space” to hide out here in the real world.  There will be ups and there will be downs, but if you choose to not be a productive member of society, then you need to stop expecting society to take care of you.

Find something positive and focus on that!  There ARE good people and good things happening in this world, you just have to look farther than the drama of social media or the five o’clock news.  And remember that ONLY You can make YOU happy!  Stop relying on your parent, sibling, spouse, kids, trainer, life coach, etc to do it for you.  Some of them may offer things that will add to your happiness, but you have to decide to be happy first.  You have to realize deep in your core, that no matter what “they” do, that it is what YOU do that defines who and what YOU are. ❤

I challenge you to go look in a mirror right now and say I AM WORTHY OF GREAT THINGS!

Then Share that Ish with EVERYONE! 🙂



So…Everybody’s Starting to Ask What I Am Up To?


Did you miss me?  It has been over 2 months since my last blog! WOW!!!

I have been pretty wrapped up in my own life lately.  Between running Phoenix Fitness with Body By BrendaT, working full time at the pharmacy, Coaching/Training, the holidays, my furbabies, and trying to fit in a LITTLE BIT of time for my husband, I have been pretty Tapped Out!

Then I made a conscious decision to go ALL IN on a new Beachbody Program from Autumn Calabrese(the creator of 21 Day Fix and the Fixate Portion Control System), 80 Day Obsession.  I even joined the Exclusive Coach Test Group!  If you know me and you know my past, you know that Me NOT having alcohol for 13 weeks is not something that comes easy for me.  Let alone the longer workouts in the morning, which means a little less sleep without a concerted effort to get to bed a tad bit earlier.


So, I am sure your biggest question is, “How am I doing on it?”

Well, in the first Phase(4 weeks), not only did I lose 12.6#, which is AWESOME, BUT I also have refocused and haven’t had not one drop of alcohol OR had any SUGARY TREATS!  Even with the Super Bowl and so far 4 Fridays,  what we refer to in the Turnbaugh house as Beer and Pizza night, I have not had too tough of a time sticking to the program.  The nutrition is based on timing and getting the right foods at the right time throughout the day.  I am loving how my body is reacting to this.  What I SHOULD tell you, is that this is very much how I ate back when I lost the bulk of my weight, AND when I made the decision to add some good, lean muscle mass.  And I feel great!

Another plus, is that since I had cortisol issues and adrenal fatigue last winter, I have had trouble not only with my weight, but also my strength.  That is FINALLY coming back!  And I am LOVING IT! I did 4 sets of alternating staggered push ups on my toes last night!  That is the first time in probably close to a year that I have been able to do that!

Sounds good, right?

I am always adding people to my ongoing Accountability and Support Facebook Group if you are interested in being coached by me through this program, or ANY Beachbody Program!  What I offer you is NOT easy or a quick fix.  You WILL WORK!  But trust me, the feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction and pride of seeing the results that you worked for is an AMAZING feeling! 🙂


Time to get back to work!

MAKE today GREAT!!! 😉

Fighting To Get Back To Me!

Y’all who have been following me for awhile, know that this past year has brought me many physical and emotional struggles in regards to my changing body.  Menopause, adrenal fatigue, stress, injuries, the resulting weight gain, etc…..  It has all taken a toll.  On my confidence in not only myself, but my abilities as a trainer, group fitness instructor, Beachbody Coach, and motivator.  To look as I do right now, I feel people may not see me as any of that.
I have been pulling away from many things-events, opportunities, even outings with friends- because I have felt like a failure.  Like I had not only failed myself, but like I had failed everyone who looked to me for positivity and inspiration.  Although I am nowhere close to my highest weight of 296#, I am obviously not at my top physical form either.   This all came on FAST last year about this time, and I let it get the best of me.  I let it consume both my head and my heart.  I have battled those thoughts, and recently cried it out with a couple of friends. 
Over the last few weeks, although I am still not close to 100% back to normal, I can feel my body releasing some of the stress and worry. Without stressing about every little thing, I have without doing anything other than going back to a mostly clean diet and not freaking out or beating myself up over every morsel of food, lost 4# since the Monday before Thanksgiving.  I hope this means that the Adrenal Fatigue is starting to let me go and letting my hormones begin to regulate. I have felt much happier and my positive attitude is beginning to return!
I tell you all of this and share this particular picture below, because I am going to be VERY HONEST, I miss this body and the person I felt like then!  I was not my lowest weight here, actually weighed around 170# give or take a few pounds, but I felt GOOD!!! I was fit and strong and had an amazing mindset!  And my body was not fighting me.  I simply felt healthy!
So as I go forward, I am going to continue to eat mostly clean and healthy(approximately 80:20) and not put any labels on my “diet”. No more low-carb, no carb, keto, paleo, fat free, strict calorie control, Atkins, blah blah blah!!!! I am declaring one last time, that my days of being a human guinea pig to research different diets is OVER!!! To be honest, it doesn’t really matter to anyone but myself, how my body responds anyway! We are all different. And every eating plan will affect us each differently. The only thing that REALLY matters, is that it is healthy and life long SUSTAINABLE for YOU! And for me personally, I refuse to put some things in(or ON) my body, even if it means I could get back to this weight in a short period of time. Thanks but NO THANKS! I will do it the exact same way that I went from 296# down to my TOO lean for me runner’s body at 149# and 17%BF. I liked how I looked, but it was not sustainable for Me.
This decision means eating a “clean” diet and continuing to ENJOY exercise! I am not afraid of the work, and I am certainly not in this for the short-term. In my past experience, fast weight loss just meant FASTER rebound weight gain! The end of this destination is me living a full, healthy, and HAPPY life into old age! NOT a certain number on a scale or the size of my jeans!
I want to be around for a long time! I LOVE my life, and I don’t want to leave it too soon! 🙂 I believe that in opening Phoenix Fitness with Body By BrendaT, and working with Beachbody, that I have found my purpose. And I will continue to FIGHT for that! No adrenal fatigue, hormone imbalance, or injury will get me to quit!
Like a Phoenix, I will once again RISE UP!
#NeverGiveUp #MakeTodayGreat #DeliverHope

Time For A Visit to My WHYS!


To Be The BEST Version of ME That I Can Be!

To Help Others Find Their Inner Strength to BE Their Personal BEST!

Don’t Let Anyone’s Doubts Keep You From Doing What You Love!  EVEN YOUR OWN!



I have been feeling “OFF” lately.  That “not quite myself” feeling.  To the point of allowing some negativity get through that big POSITIVITY WALL that I usually try to keep built up around me.  My light in my smile has even been dimmed in recent months.  I am over it!  It is time to MOVE FORWARD!!!  Onward and Upward as the saying goes! 🙂



Are you letting your baggage be a barrier?

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This picture of this baggage wall paper was like a smack in the face to me!  I have been allowing not only new challenges in my life, but also OLD challenges and baggage creep back up into my life making me feel “less than”.  That is the power that negative thinking and more importantly, what negative ENERGY can have in your life.  I am closing that door in my life.  And when negativity comes knocking, I will be placing a ‘Do Not Disturb’ sign on the doorknob!  Old pains in my life are surfacing for different reasons, which are a theme for a different blog someday.  Hell, it may be enough for me to write a whole book!  But either way, today I will not be giving it any negative power in my life.  It can’t be undone, but I can forgive those who hurt me so that I can let go of the hurt that I hold deep inside that has, for most of my life, given me the feelings that I am not worthy of real love or real happiness.  That I didn’t deserve them.  I now know that I DO!


I am learning that new struggles in my life are NOT necessarily bad things.  I just need to learn and grow through the new struggles and not give them all the power.  And I need to not think that I am struggling because I deserve ONLY struggle because that is what the past has shown me.  Some struggles are simply put in our lives to help us learn and grow.  We can either look for the lesson or not.  And if you choose not to learn, you will not grow.


So, to close, I will NEVER quit on me, and since I CHOOSE to never quit on me, as part of my WHY, I will also NEVER QUIT ON YOU!  I am CHOOSING to learn and grow through this period.  It may not be all rainbows and puppy dogs today, tomorrow, or even next month, but there will be times of bright light and happiness.  THAT is what I choose to take from this journey.

Wanna Come Along?

My new way of seeing struggle in my life –


You have the power to MAKE today GREAT! ❤

Looking for…..Something

Today I am not sure WHAT to write, but I feel compelled to write something.

I have been a bit lost lately.  What does that mean?  I’m really not sure.

Many things in my life and the lives of those around me, are changing.  Change of course, is scary.  And I am no exception to this rule.  My life has been filled with some wonderful times, and some extreme lows.  I have tried to take my life when I felt I had nothing left to live for, and I have celebrated days when I felt like things were actually looking up.  Nothing is ever perfect.  I own a business(2 in fact), and I am still broke.  I am healthy and fit, and yet I am still fat.  I love my husband, yet we still argue and fight to make our relationship work every day.  I have a home that I love, but it is in such disarray, that I don’t want anyone in it.  I teach some amazing fitness and dance fitness classes that give me energy and want to do more, yet I am in constant pain.  I look forward to a bright future, yet I keep letting my past hold me back.


You see, I have lived with a feeling of worthlessness all my life.  No matter what I did right in my life, I never feel it was good enough.  If I got B’s in school, why weren’t they A’s?  If I got A’s, why weren’t they A+’s?  If I lost 148#, why not 150#?  If I knew how to lose 148#, why can’t I lose 45# NOW?  And HOW & WHY did I ALLOW myself to gain back those 45# to begin with?


I tend to be told that I am an eternal optimist.  And I AM!  Where everyone else is concerned at least.  For myself?  THAT is still under construction!   I will always try to help others the best I can, but I forget to do the same for myself.

Some of you may have noticed that you have been seeing a little bit less of me on social media lately.  That is because I am trying to give myself a little bit of rest, rehab, and healing time.  Basically cutting myself a little slack.  Yes, I still work a full-time day job 8-5, and run my studio from 6-9PM Monday-Friday, and the studio approximately 7:30AM-Noon on Saturdays.  But the times I am not at one of those 2 places or working on paperwork or practicing workout routines for the studio, is MY TIME!  And, YES, I am still a Beachbody Coach and have future plans(once I am free of injuries) to work some team building into my schedule, because at this time, my team consists only of a few coaches who are basically VIP customers with the option to be more if they so choose, but I do believe that with the right mindset and confidence, that I could make it so much more. My current team is full of loyal friends who have no desire to run a business of their own, but know the high quality of our Beachbody products, including Shakeology, and I thank God for them every day!

So, as I go forward from today, I am going to look to the future with an open mind and heart.  I don’t know what the future holds for me, but I will keep working towards my ultimate goal of helping more people like me who need the support of others to be accountable to and to help them find their way to achieve a healthier lifestyle than they are living today.

Life is a roller coaster.  I just need to enjoy the ride along the dips, twists, and turns as much as I do the climbs and the view from the tops.diamondback 🙂