Failed Again!?!

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It has been brought to my attention by someone other than myself that I am too fat to wear fitted clothes right now!  WOW!  That one hit me right between the eyes.  BUT, I needed to hear it!  I have let the stress of life take me over for far too long.  Then last week, I took a Stay-cation and did very little moving, while eating whatever the heck I wanted.  Well, the results of all of this negative activity is showing up in a broader booty and waistline. 😦

So, as I struggle to get back on the right path, I feel like it is time to once again share my WHY with the world.  My WHY’s for getting healthy and fit are mainly selfish.  First and foremost, I really want to be HOT!  I know, I know….  How shallow, right?  But have you ever been the “ugly duckling”?  If you have, then you know where I am coming from.  I also want to feel AMAZING in any clothes I want to wear.  Now, I know that I am never going to look like Kate Upton in a bikini, but I am NOT Kate Upton!  I am Brenda Turnbaugh!  And being MY very best is good enough for me!  That may be a size 8/10, that may be a size 4/6, but whatever it is, as long as I know in my heart that I am giving MY life, MY VERY VERY BEST EFFORT, I am going to be OK with it!

But recently I have felt like a 100% FAILURE!  As a fitness coach, as a fitness instructor, as a role model, and even as as a person.  I realize now that none of that is true!  We all have trying times in our lives that we have to work through and get past.  But you live it, deal with it, dig deep to find your strength to move on, and never give up

So I am a little “fluffy” right now!  You know what?  FAILURES HAPPEN!  LIFE HAPPENS!

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Yes, I have some weight to lose.

Yes, I am back up to a number on the scale that I NEVER wanted to see again.

And, Yes, I feel pretty “blah” about how I look and feel right now.

But I am working on forgiving myself for letting it get out of hand, and putting the stress, guilt, self-destruction, and self-sabatoge behind me!  Honestly, what other choice do I have?

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So, I know how to lose weight.  I know how to keep 100+ pounds off for 5 years.  Now I just need to figure out how to succeed at doing it longer.  I am not worried.  I’ve met me! 🙂  And I know of my determination and enthusiasm to succeed and help others succeed in this battle against obesity! 🙂

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Next week, I start the next chapter of my story, by starting Shaun T’s Focus T25 and dedicating more time to my own fitness and nutrition program again.  I am very excited for the next 10 weeks, and would love for any of you to join in for support and accountability!

Go to my Home Page at http://www.bodybybrendat.net and fill out the form.  Then send me an email at bodybybrenda@hotmail.com telling me you are done with it, and I will help you get you started TODAY!!! 🙂

FEAR!

I know it has been a long time.  A lot going on in my personal life right now.  If you follow me on FB, you know it has been a struggle for me.  But I keep fighting.  Stress has me frustrated and gaining weight!   UGH! I am trying to re-focus starting today.

But today I want to talk about FEAR.

Are you wanting to start on your journey to your fittest you, but you are scared to start? Fear of failure keeping you sitting on the sidelines? Thinking to yourself, “I want to __________, but I am just not strong, smart, coordinated, etc. enough.”

REALLY?!?!

5 years ago today, I weighed OVER 275# and have been morbidly obese for more of my life than not ! I was drinking EVERY night! Smoking 1.5-2 packs of cigarettes every day! I was pre-diabetic, had high BP, and my cholesterol was…well, to be honest, I think it read GRAVY! I have titanium bolts holding my lower back together.  I have things in my past that have left me feeling COMPLETELY WORTHLESS TO HUMANITY!  I live in a town whose population is about 400!  And we live paycheck to paycheck!

So, did I think I could get healthy and fit on my own, was a stretch by itself. But to think that one day I might inspire, motivate, and even help and coach others on their paths would have never even crossed my mind.

NOW? Now it is my biggest dream and greatest joy in life. Whether it be through classes I am teaching, a workout I designed, or through being a Beachbody Coach, or just talking to someone about nutrition, exercise, or finding their confidence and self worth, I feel I am doing what I am meant to do.

This post was brought to you by my friend and fellow Beachbody coach, Andy, after he posted one of my favorite Twain quotes this morning~

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” -Mark Twain

So don’t live your life in fear of failure. You will regret NEVER doing things you wish you had than doing them and failing. And if you keep working, there is no failing. You are ALWAYS a work in progress. I may feel “blah” at times, but I KNOW I am not a failure. I am just an unfinished masterpiece! 🙂

MAKE today GREAT!!!

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