Failed Again!?!


It has been brought to my attention by someone other than myself that I am too fat to wear fitted clothes right now!  WOW!  That one hit me right between the eyes.  BUT, I needed to hear it!  I have let the stress of life take me over for far too long.  Then last week, I took a Stay-cation and did very little moving, while eating whatever the heck I wanted.  Well, the results of all of this negative activity is showing up in a broader booty and waistline. 😦

So, as I struggle to get back on the right path, I feel like it is time to once again share my WHY with the world.  My WHY’s for getting healthy and fit are mainly selfish.  First and foremost, I really want to be HOT!  I know, I know….  How shallow, right?  But have you ever been the “ugly duckling”?  If you have, then you know where I am coming from.  I also want to feel AMAZING in any clothes I want to wear.  Now, I know that I am never going to look like Kate Upton in a bikini, but I am NOT Kate Upton!  I am Brenda Turnbaugh!  And being MY very best is good enough for me!  That may be a size 8/10, that may be a size 4/6, but whatever it is, as long as I know in my heart that I am giving MY life, MY VERY VERY BEST EFFORT, I am going to be OK with it!

But recently I have felt like a 100% FAILURE!  As a fitness coach, as a fitness instructor, as a role model, and even as as a person.  I realize now that none of that is true!  We all have trying times in our lives that we have to work through and get past.  But you live it, deal with it, dig deep to find your strength to move on, and never give up

So I am a little “fluffy” right now!  You know what?  FAILURES HAPPEN!  LIFE HAPPENS!


Yes, I have some weight to lose.

Yes, I am back up to a number on the scale that I NEVER wanted to see again.

And, Yes, I feel pretty “blah” about how I look and feel right now.

But I am working on forgiving myself for letting it get out of hand, and putting the stress, guilt, self-destruction, and self-sabatoge behind me!  Honestly, what other choice do I have?



So, I know how to lose weight.  I know how to keep 100+ pounds off for 5 years.  Now I just need to figure out how to succeed at doing it longer.  I am not worried.  I’ve met me! 🙂  And I know of my determination and enthusiasm to succeed and help others succeed in this battle against obesity! 🙂

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Next week, I start the next chapter of my story, by starting Shaun T’s Focus T25 and dedicating more time to my own fitness and nutrition program again.  I am very excited for the next 10 weeks, and would love for any of you to join in for support and accountability!

Go to my Home Page at and fill out the form.  Then send me an email at telling me you are done with it, and I will help you get you started TODAY!!! 🙂

I Reached My GOAL! NOW WHAT???

I get that A LOT!

And this week, I was asked to touch on the subject by Oscar Insurace, who provides health care in New York and New Jersey!  So, if you have worked hard and got to your goal and now have that “WHAT’S NEXT?” feeling, please take a minute to read on and learn from my mistakes, AND my victories!

My first answer to, “Now what?”, is ALWAYS, “Set a NEW Goal!”

Those of you who did not know me back in 1996, don’t know that I hit my goal weight one other time in my adult life.  Yup!  I did a “Doctor Approved” weight loss plan.  I lost 84# in about 7 months.  When I hit my goal, you guessed it….I thought I was DONE, so I let all of my bad habits creep back in.  I started eating the way I did before starting the “plan”.  I started drinking alcohol and eating fatty foods again.  At the same time, I was released from Physical Therapy(which was the ONLY exercise I was getting), so I stopped doing any exercise at all!  Within 6 months, I had put back on 45#!  Do you know what I did next?

I GAVE UP!  Over the next 12 years, I dieted continuously, and gained more and more weight, before hitting my all time high, which was closer to 300# than I like to admit.  I admit to 275#, so let’s just stick with that! 😛

No one had told me that health and fitness really IS a lifestyle that you must practice every day.  There is no final destination.  You can always be better.  You can eat a little cleaner.  You can stretch a little more.  You can lift a little more.  You can get a little stronger.  I think of martial arts.  Or yoga.  People practice these for their entire lives!  They are always working to improve.  There is NO PERFECT!  There is not a place where you now know everything, so that is the end.  They just keep working on being THEIR VERY BEST.

Let’s fast forward to September 2008.  I had at that point had 3 back surgeries including a lumbar spinal fusion.  I was a drunk.  I was a chain smoker.  I was a couch potato.  I HATED MYSELF!

I made a decision!  I was tired of living like this, and I was refusing to go on diabetes and blood pressure medication.  I was NOT going to live my mother’s life!  She was always unhealthy and overweight.   And she also died entirely too young!

So I reached out!  I joined an online support group.  They helped me realize that I did not have to be perfect, and making small changes in the beginning would amount to huge success in the end.  So I walked 1/2 a block from my house and back 5 days a week and I cut out fried foods.  The next week, I walked a full block and cut back to drinking alcohol 4 days a week.  The third week, I walked 2 blocks, did 2 minutes of a 10-Minute Trainer video, and cut back to drinking 3 nights a week.  See the pattern?  Nothing drastic at first.  SMALL CONSISTENT EFFORTS=BIG RESULTS.

One Step At A Time

I 100% believe that SUPPORT, no matter if it is one workout buddy, or a group of people online(who for me seemed less threatening, because they didn’t know me well enough to judge me, or at least I didn’t care if they did!), or a group of friends who team up to keep each other accountable as each works towards their individual goals.

And when that particular group broke up, I wasn’t sure exactly what to do.  I knew I needed someone to be accountable to.  So I went BIG!  I went public!  My accountability group became the WORLD!  I started this blog.  Then I started my Facebook Page.  And when I found out that not only was I helping myself stay accountable, but that the people who were following me were using my posts and my page to stay accountable themselves, a passion to help them started growing inside me!  I searched for the best way to do that, and that was when I was introduced to Beachbody!

Today, as a Beachbody Coach, I put people in groups to do the exact same thing!  And not only does it help them, but it helps me.  The more people in the group who participate and share and work to stay accountable, the easier it is for Me to also stay accountable.

In fact, those of you who follow me on Facebook, already know that I am starting a challenge this upcoming Saturday, November 1st, called “The $5, ‘Get Me Through The Holidays’ Challenge Group”.

GROUP!  THAT is the key word here!

If you don’t feel you have to do it alone…

If you KNOW someone is watching…

If you know the other members of the group are counting on you for the same support that they are showing you…

You WILL show up!  Many of us will do EVERYTHING we can to help someone else, but NEVER for OURSELVES!  Mommies especially, I KNOW you are hearing me!

So I invite you to HELP SOMEONE ELSE!

Make it about THEM!  You will be surprised at how much YOU will achieve if you start out trying to help someone else.

Decide. Commit. Succeed!

It is your choice.  It is MY choice.  I could easily decide tomorrow, that this public accountability life is too hard.  That it would be SO much easier to live a quiet life where the world is not inspecting every bite I put in my mouth, every workout I do(or DON’T do), and every time I LIVE MY LIFE and have a beer(or several) with friends.  Yes, I do LIVE!  I try my best to stick to an 80/20 plan, but sometimes life happens.  It gets messy.

But I get up every day and make a choice.  I choose to do MY best each and every day!  Some days are better than others.  PERIOD!  But you have to learn to let the bad ones go.  Leave them in the past.  You know the old saying, “Get back up, dust yourself off, and get back on the horse!”  There is a lot of truth in that statement.

Aristotle said, “Excellence is a habit.”


The more you practice picking yourself up, the more it will become a habit.  Excellence will become your normal.  Your ordinary will become EXTRAORDINARY!   So every day, when you wake up, while you are getting ready for your day, MAKE THE CHOICE!  CHOOSE happiness!



So my 4 biggest “What To Do”‘s in “keeping it off”?

1) Realize that this is a LIFELONG journey!  There is no final destination.  There is always another goal that you want to reach.

2) SUPPORT!!!  Find a group you relate to and hold on to them!

3) Help OTHERS work towards THEIR success!

4) CHOOSE to BE whatever you want!  It really is as simple as that.  Will it be EASY?  Heck no!  Will you have times when you need more help than others to get back up on that horse?  YES!  But can you do it?  Of course!  And Why?  Because the choice is yours!

If you want to join one of my groups, contact me.

LOVE to you ALL!!!

Remember, the choice is YOURS!  MAKE today GREAT!!!

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My Life as a Beachbody Coach

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In January 2013, a very nice guy named, Jeremy, who was a friend of mine on Facebook that I met actually through following his Mom, Sandi Krakowski, to learn more about blogging, started talking to me about Shakeology and Beachbody.  He was fairly new to the business, but was working on losing weight himself at the time, and was having amazing results with Shakeology and P90X.  I wasn’t really thinking I wanted P90X, but when I found Les Mills COMBAT on his site, I WANTED IT!  And I was very into improving my nutrition, and after adding up all the supplements that Shakeology was going to replace, the $130 price tag was actually a LOT LESS than what I was spending at the time.  Then, Jeremy told me about Coaching and that I could get a 25% discount and had the opportunity to actually build a business with it.  OK…if you know me, you know I am…well…let’s call it “frugal” 😉  So with the money I was actually going to be saving monthly, I was IN!

I know it often surprises people, but I am actually kind of a shy introvert who does not get out much.  I am a homebody.  Which is another reason that the Home DVD programs were of huge interest to me.  Sure, I liked going to the gym, but I never talked to many people.  I was there to WORK, not chit chat, and people who were there just to talk while they put in their “time”, were just hindering me from getting my work done so I could get back to my home and my life.  So yeah, working out at home sounded pretty good to me 🙂  So on February 16th, I placed my order.  Needless to say, I have NOT regretted that decision.

Since starting with Beachbody, I have made so many like minded fitness friends.  And have found an amazing accountability group for both my fitness AND my business.  I have also learned a lot about myself and how to improve from all of the personal development that Beachbody offers and my team has introduced me to.  THAT in itself was worth becoming a coach, since I struggled with self-worth and self-worth all my life.  And most importantly, I have been able to reach more people than I ever thought possible through Social Media and helped them start, or take the next step, on their journey to health and fitness. For years, I was an obese, beer swilling, chain smoking, couch potato, and at 37, I made the decision to make a change my life and become healthy and fit.  I have inspired a few family members and friends to make the change, and I love that!  And the fact that with Beachbody I am getting to meet and introduce MORE people to health and fitness is AMAZING!  You never know who YOU can inspire to change their life for the better!


So, if you are just looking to get in shape and be a customer using Beachbody programs and Shakeology, that is AWESOME!  But, if you are interested getting the 25% discount on your monthly Shakeology AND all future Beachbody programs, OR if you are interested in building a business either making it full-time of part-time to earn some extra money, I would LOVE to have you as part of my team!  Message me on Facebook or email me at and I would love to get you started today!  Either as a Discount Coach or as a Business Building Machine, you are welcome to take part in all of the same opportunities I have to learn from the wonderful teams I belong to.  PLUS, the discounts,the trips and eve the chance to earn FREE trips, the webinars, the PD.  It is all worth it! 🙂

Round 1…DONE!

I’m not going to lie, I was a bit disappointed when I found out Beachbody was coming out with a program called the 21 Day Fix!   Because starting out in September 2008, if I heard 21 Day Fix, I may have thought, “WOW!  In 21 Days, my obesity will be cured!”  I know better now, and have, as a Beachbody Coach, hopefully made sure that my customers know that it is a tool.  A VERY GOOD tool, but a new lifestyle does not just appear at the end of the 21 days.  But at the end of that 21 days, you WILL be well on your way to a permanent solution to solving all of your nutrition and exercising(or NON-exercising) bad habits.

I am writing this post to show MY results of my first round of the 21 Day Fix.  But first a bit of a back story on my last year.

In 2010, I weighed 150#.  Over the next 2 years, I worked my tail off to put on 10-12# of muscle.  In 2012, my weight fluctuated from 157-162#, and looked better than I ever had in my life.  I maintained that until January of 2013.  I had multiple dental issues and then got sick from the infection they caused.  I felt like garbage for a long time, had some personal issues going on, and started a new BAD habit of procrastination snacking!  This could have proved to have been my downfall.  Over the last year, I have fluctuated up and down from 169-180#!  I just could not seem to get my nutrition back on track.  I knew portion control was one of my biggest issues, and I really struggle with logging my food.  But 21 Day Fix offered me a new system of doing BOTH of those things that FINALLY worked for me!

I finished up Round One Yesterday, admittedly with a few slip ups that threw me off track, but here are my results.

3pic21dfresults31614with statsI may not be where I want to be yet, but I am a LONG way from where I started! 🙂  I am so happy with my results, that I am starting round 2 tomorrow.  I will finish this second round just in time to start my Les Mills Challenge Group on April 7th, and just in time to celebrate my 43rd Birthday!  WOW!  Time certainly does fly, doesn’t it?

If you would like to join my Challenge Group, or would like more info on the 21 Day Fix, message me either through Facebook at Body By Brenda or by email at

MAKE today GREAT!!!

My “WHY” once again being Revisited!


Sitting in a hospital.  The woman I am looking at in the bed in front of me was so full of life not long ago.  She now looks so frail.  Barely resembles the woman that I have had so much fun with, laughed with, cried with, called my friend.  She is quiet.  The only noise is that of the machines that are hooked up to her.  I am scared and feel like my life is on the brink of a major change.  What will life be like if she is no longer here?  What will I do?  Parts of me are breaking inside?  The tears come without warning.

That paragraph was me remembering what it was like that day 20 years ago sitting in St Francis Hospital in Peoria, IL watching my Mom after she had 5 bypasses done on her heart.  Her diabetes was starting to take over.  Her body was wearing out a piece at a time.  She was 55.  We didn’t lose her that time, but as of Sunday, it will have been 11 years since we did lose her to the diabetes.  After 8 months of dialysis, she fell asleep in her chair and God took her home.  They said it was another heart attack.   My heart broke that day.  It was 6 weeks until my wedding, and I did not know how to move on to the next day even.  But my family, especially my big sisters, helped me through.

Let’s now fast forward to yesterday.

Wow!  Here I go crying again.  I may never get this written.

Yesterday, my oldest sister(53 now), had to have a triple bypass surgery.  I walked into her room after her surgery, ready to praise God that my sister was OK.  Instead I was stopped dead in my tracks.  I was looking at my Mom!  All those feelings came rushing back again.  I was SCARED!  I did give that well deserved Praise later, but in that moment, I was in shock!  I am so sick of this horrible disease!  I wish I could say that she is now out of the woods.  But within a day or two, she also has to have two more toes amputated.  The diabetes is taking them too.

Our Dad is suffering from a total personality change and an altered mental state after his kidneys started shutting down a few months ago due to his diabetes, and his potassium skyrocketed.  We didn’t physically lose him that day, but MY DAD is not really there anymore.  It took “him” away. 😦

Six years ago, in spring of 2008, I was told that I was borderline diabetic, my blood pressure was too high, and my cholesterol was…well…my blood was gravy!  And I was pushing 300#!  I was still seeing the same doctor who had been my Mom’s doctor.  He actually asked me if I planned to follow in her footsteps.  By September of that year after a health scare of my own that turned out OK, I started thinking more seriously about doing something about my health.  I woke up the day after watching the season premier of Biggest Loser that got me thinking maybe I could do it, and lo and behold, there was my Mom was looking back at me in my mirror.  I was built just like her.  I had some of the same early health issues that she had.  And I was topping it all off with a 12 pack of been and 2 packs of cigarettes a day!  I decided right then and there that I was NOT going down that road.  And I choose to do something about it.  Here it is 5 1/2 years later, and some days are good, and some days are not so good, but I continue to make the same choices to be MY Healthiest Me, EVERY day!

Can it all be fixed by taking better care of your health?  I don’t know, but research does show that it greatly improves your chances.  Why sit and wait?  Take action!  Isn’t living a more happy, more productive, more healthy life worth it?  In my opinion, from my experience, YES!


Don’t know how?  Don’t know where to start?

I would LOVE to help you.  Most of you reading this blog already know how to find me.  Come visit me on Facebook or follow the links on my home page to my Beachbody site for more information.  Or, you can e-mail me any time at

MAKE today GREAT!!!

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Last Day of 30-Days To a More Confident You!

I can’t believe this is our LAST Confidence Builder! This month has just flown by! Looking for ideas to tackle next, anyone have any ideas they would like me to ponder, let me know. But for now, let’s get to it!

30-Days To a More Confident You!

Day 30 – Imagine The BEST!

The BEST? By this, I mean YOUR BEST! What does YOUR BEST look like to you? What does that even MEAN to you?

For me personally, I ask “WHAT do I WANT my life to look like?” What would make me feel happy and secure? What would be MY best life? I try to imagine it as if it has already happened. Like my BEST life IS my present life!

I am more happily married to Tony than ever!
I help people every day improve their lives.
I get to share my story to inspire others.
I am confident!
I have enough money to be happily secure and don’t have to worry about living paycheck to paycheck anymore.
Tony is retired and enjoys his life not having to work SO hard!
I have time to spend with Tony and all of our Furkids.
I have the time and freedom to work in my yard and flower and vegetable gardens more often, because that is where I feel most at peace and closest to God.
I get to teach classes to people who enjoy fitness as much as I do.
I am lean and fit and in the very best shape of my life!
I am a certified personal trainer.
I am more knowledgeable about nutrition.
I have a beautiful home with room either inside or in a separate building for a full gym where I can both train and teach classes.
I no longer struggle with bouts of abusing food to numb my emotions and stress.

I know I am leaving things out, but these are the things that I have in my heart and mind right now. I love my life now! But I know there are GREAT things in store for me and if I keep working hard and BELIEVE, all my dreams WILL come true!

In the “Comments”section, tell me what YOUR BEST LIFE looks like to you!

DREAM BIG! You are worth it! Your BEST life CAN be yours!
believeHead UP! Shoulders BACK! Smile ON! Now get out there and take on the world!!!