Huh? The Rambling Thoughts that Come AFTER a Migraine

Today I come to you with EVERYTHING and yet NOTHING in my head.

I have not been writing much, because after my wonderful success with 21 Day Fix, LIFE got me!  I once again started “stress snacking”.  I am doing a very well thought out schedule(so as to never be doing TOO MUCH, but still having the variety) hybrid workout of Body Beast workouts for lifting, Les Mills COMBAT, and then working in my Zumba classes and of course, the FIT classes twice a week at Legacy Martial Arts!  So with all of that and working my J.O.B., and Beachbody Coaching, AND then the stress that comes with being the POA of an aging parent who can no longer do anything for himself and having NO CLUE yourself what you are doing, I have fallen into some “comfort food” eating patterns.  I haven’t even been keeping up with my personal journal, and that is usually a BAD sign for me.

After the last 3 days of suffering with the first migraine I have had in 4 years, I realized something needed to change.

I HAVE to work.

I LOVE ZUMBA and working out.  In fact I NEED the workouts to keep me not only healthy physically, but mentally!

Beachbody is MY passion.  It is my way to help others achieve their best selves.

And the stuff with my Dad?  Well, it has to be done.

And I still need time to be a wife and a mom to my furkids!

And don’t forget REST and PLAY!  They ARE important!  – here I go off on a thought….I am reminded of Brene Brown saying in her book, “The Gifts Of Imperfections”, that it is those who PLAY who live life Whole Heartedly!  I want to live my life with my WHOLE heart.  I want to love what I do to the point that it no longer feels like work.  I used to WISH for a life like that.  Well, you see where wishing has gotten me!  Now, I am working on MAKING it happen!  It took WORK to lose 125#!  It took WORK to gain 15# of muscle!  It takes WORK to keep a marriage together through all the changes we have been through over the past 11 years!  But I have done ALL of that!

So what does that mean for me NOW?   Because obviously some things AREN’T working!

NOW, I need to WORK on balance and organizing so I can LIVE MY LIFE of passion!

NOW, I need to find others to join me in my quest to help others live THEIR BEST LIVES!

NOW, I have to learn to delegate some of the things that stress me out!  Tomorrow will be the LAST day that I will be doing certain things “on my own!”  I will learn to ask for help!  I will learn to delegate!  I will MAKE the time for the things that will MAKE my life GREAT!

So, as you see, I am all over the map today.  My head has been in such a fog the last few days with this migraine, that as the fog is clearing, many things are becoming clearer.  Just 24 hours ago, you have no idea how frustrated I was.  Just HOW CLOSE I was to quitting on my dreams.  Things were stacking up against me.  In one week, my business went from closing in on a mile stone to sinking like a rock, to now looking hopeful and flourishing again.  In another situation, I felt like things were being hidden from me and/or done behind my back.  And NOT in my best interest!  But you know what???  Stuff happens!  We just have to remember that EXACTLY WHAT WE WANT, NEED, AND HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR may be just around the next corner.

NEVER GIVE UP!!!

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Maybe this migraine was Gods way of giving my head a reboot.  I’ll take it!  MY miracle is on its way! 🙂

 

Time to MAKE today GREAT!!!

 

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!

The people I have met on my journey to a healthier me has been one of the biggest blessings I could have ever asked for!  My Foxy Ladies that I met on BLC and still talk to some daily, the friends I made in the few short months that I was on Jillian Michael’s site and still talk to at least once a week, the great people that I met in the run club, the wonderful Fitness Family I have become a part of at Legacy Martial Arts and the whole martial arts world through KickPics, fabulously fun Zumba Friends, the people I am meeting and even old friends I am getting reacquainted with through my Body By Brenda blog, Facebook page, Twitter, and other social media, and now my new Beachbody Family!  ALL of them are special to me and have such a special place in my heart.  Each of them brought me a little further out of my shell, and have helped me grow in ways I never thought were possible for me.

I am now on the edge of a cliff.  The hang glider is attached to my back, and I am ready for the ride of my life.  I just have to get the gumption up to JUMP!  Have faith in myself and faith in God that I have the courage and self-confidence to be the inspiration, the helping hand, the motivator, the coach, the friend, the whatever it is that I need to be to help the most people in this world find their way to health and fitness.  It is a passion that grows inside me more each day.

I have gotten so many sincere, heart-felt encouraging words from so many people the last few months, as I struggle to get past this injury-fest that my body seems to be on.   My confidence is building even as I struggle.  I am working to be the best I can be!  I have been “on track” for 3 days now, and I am feeling AWESOME!  Not that the pain is all gone, but in my heart, I feel that my goals are NOT out of reach, in fact, they are MY PURPOSE!

So today is a beautiful, sunny, HOT day here in the Midwest, and I could not feel happier, more content, or more confident in ME than I do right now!  I pray that it lasts, but I know it is going to take MY hard work along with God’s blessings to get the job done!  If you are not following me on Facebook yet, please go to Body By Brenda to follow along with the 30-Days To a More Confident You! Challenge that I am putting myself through.  I challenge you to come along on this journey with me.  I am only on day 3, and the posts are all there for you to reflect back to.

This kind of fit in with today’s Challenge post.

happy lifeI know with my recent struggles, some people were even worried that I may be giving up on my dreams and goals all together.  No worries there!  I KNOW I can get where I want to be.  I am just more of a “toe dipper” than a “jump in all at once” type of person!  It doesn’t really matter HOW you get there, but GET IN THE WATER!!!

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MAKE today GREAT!!!