So Good It Hurts – When Something Touches You On a Soul Deep Level

I WISH I was talking about a complete and unconditional love that would sweep me away and take away all the sadness, pain, and loneliness. But I’m NOT!

In fact, as much as I adore him, since I met him, he has kinda caused me a lot of mental anguish. But I can’t stay away. Sounds like a Bad Boy Love Affair, right? NOPE! I am speaking of one of my favorite authors, Cole Denton(click his name to go to his website). I showed you some of his stuff on Thursday, but there is so much more.

Cole writes Dark Romance /Dark Fiction. I was expecting the BDSM and kink, and even the MM and age gap. BUT, what I wasn’t expecting, was how he gives you a character in a book that all of a sudden you FEEL so deeply for, that you become an emotional mess wanting their life to be all they deserve for it to be!

I first started reading his work with his current, The Club Oxygen, series which is AMAZING, and Book 4- Slave(Brandon’s Story) is the one I just finished that was released on Thursday. To be betrayed by the only person you think truly cares for you? My heart ripped a little more for him each chapter. I wanted to scoop him up and smother him with love.

Click on the picture for my Amazon review and to get your copy:

I highly recommend the series. And it isn’t over yet. I am already excited to get my hands on Sadist when it releases in January 2021.

I also want to touch on Cole’s Trial By Fire Series-

It touched me in a very deep, dark disturbing way, yet it made me feel whole. Cole actually said to me Thursday night, “Sometimes the dark stuff ends up making us feel whole.” That is so true. It is an acceptance in a sense of not being alone in the darkness. And since you don’t live in my head, and a post about some dark stuff in there is a WHOLE different post for another day, you may not understand why it caused such an emotional release in me. But trust me, it was powerful! So many emotions in this series….HATE, LOVE, FEAR, ACCEPTANCE, GRIEF, DISGUST, HELPLESSNESS, DESIRE, RESPECT, GUILT, LONELINESS and more .

The darkness that Ryan experiences in his life could have left him 100% broken. Hopeless. And I think that is why it touched me so much. He didn’t stop trying to be better. To find himself. To get past the darkness in his life and find some sort of light. Love.

Can a soul really find its one and only? I’d like to believe it can happen. That true love with respect and passion and trust. And I believe deep in my soul that it is possible with a single touch to show your one and only that with you they are safe, wanted, cared for, and unconditionally loved.

One thing that I think connected me to Ryan in the TBF series, comes back to the significance of me using a Phoenix in my business logo and name. I always related to the concept of it rising up from the ashes after being burned to the ground.

I have been through some shit in my life. Some bad, and some just bad luck. And due to some of that I am an overly emotional deep thinker and worrier who analyzes every word that comes out of her mouth. I freak out sending Facebook Friend requests. Right now writing this, I am worried that someone will hate it! But I distract from that side of myself with most usually self-deprecating humor. I never learned to be very nice to myself because I never felt I deserved it. That is actually still something I work on daily. But I will never give up trying to find what makes me feel deserving. Worthy. Happy. Enough. Some days I feel I may be getting too old, too settled, too comfortable to keep looking, and that it is never going to happen for me. But as I preach to others when they question similar things in their lives, I do believe that you are never too old to start a new goal, chase a new dream, or find a new, fresh outlook on life.

I got passed the semi-colon in my life a long time ago. I will Never Give Up!

There IS more!

There IS a reason!

#ColeDenton #RiseUp #ProjectSemicolon #IAmEnough #LoveIsLove #DarkFiction #DarkRomance #BDSM

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